Been feeling like my grief has hit me all over again this week. Kind of expected it but not sure how to actually deal with it. Today is my first birthday without Mum, on Sunday it would be Mum's birthday and on the 21st it is the first anniversary of Mums death. I knew September would be hard but didnt expect to feel such overwhelming loss again.I think I am reliving each day of the month from last year and have decided…