Hi....its been 17 months now since i lost my partner Jools (Julian). I dont know why but over the past month or so, every thing is so raw again and i feel as though i am starting the grieving process all over again. I thought i was doing so well.....getting on with my life. putting the past behind me, looking forward. Now all of a sudden, its slap bang in my face. I am finding it hard to function.............everything…