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A dear friend of mine lost her 5 year battle last night with Lung Cancer.

Joan showed great courage throughout her ordeal. Giving me inspiration whilst I was ill. Joan will be sadly missed by all who knew her.

 RIP Joan. Love Julie X

I received a wonderful phone call at 11-0am today from my oncologist. He rang to tell me that my PET scan was clear and that my liver did not take up any of the sugar used in the scan. So it is a cyst afterall and no other hot spots.

He is still referring my scans to a liver specialist to look at. He said that he is probably being over cautious but after the misdiagnosis originally he wanted to be absolutely sure.

Tomorrow is my PET scan to see if this cyst on my liver which I have had from the start is just that a harmless cyst.

I am feeling very very scared and anxious, my heart is pounding and I feel sick.

I keep telling myself that it is best to find out for sure, and if it is bad news then we can crack on and do something about it. It doesn't help me.

I just want this to be over. I have the same sinking feeling I had…

A big hello to all my friends on here and to anyone who has never met me before.

I have just had 3 wonderful weeks away and came back to an emergency appointment with my oncologist.

Now let me start at the beginning. When all this happened to me the surgeon told me that I had a cist on the liver and that they were sure that that was all it was. I have had 4 scans since, 2 CT and 2 MRI and up until the last one in April…

I have to get this off my chest, hoping it will help me. I have been on here for some time now and have always felt positive. All through my treatment I have remained well and have amazed people with how I look and act. This past month I have found that I have plummeted into the depths of dispair and each morning I wake up I feel an overwhelming saddness envelope me.

Let me tell you my story and hopefully by writing…