It's Gone Tits Up

  • Just hold, On We’re Coming Home

    Yesterday was the first day I managed to have a full day at home without having to attend the hospital in the last 2 weeks. Apart from last weekend it’s been another eventful few weeks. This time it was all about platelets. When I had my chemo ...
  • A chemical reaction, physical attraction

    I’m writing this post from the Maggi’s centre today, bit of a change of scenery for my appointment. I’ve been at the Radioactive Medicine Department of the hospital where I have had a lovely 6 hour day booked out for me. They inject...
  • I’ll make a cup of coffee for your head

    So it’s been a little while since I’ve been on here to post. There’s been a lot going on in that time and to be honest I feel like it just all got on top of me for a while. Sharing my doom and gloom feelings while I was still feelin...
  • Another one bites the dust

    It’s been just over 3 weeks since my right boob faced the same fate as my left and had to leave us. I had a checkup last week and had the steri strips removed and had the wound drained. It’s all healed up very nicely so far. I had an appo...
  • The best things in life are free

    I have 5 brand new M&S post op front fastening bras size 40A that need a home. I obvs have no need for them now but I’m sure someone will. At £25 a bra it ain’t cheap having surgery. 3 of them have never been worn and the others...
  • I am woman

    It’s been a week since my surgery for my second mastectomy operation. Nothing says International Woman’s Day like ‘get this other boob off me now’. I know I’m a bit late to the game with it being a week past, but I&rsquo...
  • I bruise easily

    Last week I had an amazing week on holiday with my sister after a busy week of hospital appointments the week before. The lush feeling of being too busy having fun to think about anything else that has gone on was a dream. Although it was full on, th...
  • Keep young and beautiful

    I’ve had the most amazing pamper afternoon on Sunday. After lush weekend at my sister’s celebrating my niece’s 3rd birthday, I seriously needed some time to myself to regroup and charge my batteries. After thinking that losing my ha...
  • There’s only one Bobby Robson, One Bobby Robson

    In the last 7 day’s I’ve had 2 appointments at the Sir Bobby Robson Cancer Trials Research Centre. I’m so lucky to have all this on my doorstep. I had a meeting with the director of the trial’s unit. She is literally the most ...
  • And then I fall to pieces

    I’ve climbed the ladder in the cancer world very quickly. I have Stage 4 cancer. Metastatic breast cancer. The cancer has come back in the scar tissue of my mastectomy and spread to my bones and liver. My treatment plan remains pretty much the ...
  • I’ve become so numb

    Apart from still being physically numb on my left side, I’ve been very numb to the news about my cancer spreading. Over the last week, that numbness has turned into anger. I’ve been running through everything with fine detail and I’...
  • For days of auld lang syne

    I never thought my new year goal would be to stay alive. By the 3rd of January I’ve usually broken a diet or not started exercising so at least this year I’m winning at it so far! I’ve had the most amazing Christmas and New Year wit...
  • IT’S CHRISTMASSSSSSS!

    No appointments, no treatment, no cancer shit. This week has just been loads of meet ups, meals out, eating all of the puddings and drinking Christmas cocktails. Christmas jarmies are on and I’m all ready for the big day tomorrow. I can't wait!...
  • Catch ‘Em by Surprise

    I’ve had another heavy week of appointments over the last 7 days and not the week I was hoping to have in all honesty. Starting off with the good news though, on Monday I attended my last physio session. I have full range of motion and mobility...
  • Deck the Halls

    Last week has been another busy one with appointments. I went to see the breast nurses on Tuesday morning and had my mastectomy area drained again. I told them I had my appointment for my radiotherapy and needed the seroma to just stop now. They fitt...
  • Wake me up inside

    It’s been a week since I started my new chemo treatment and this week, I’m beyond tired 24/7. There is definitely a difference between ‘tired’ and ‘chronic fatigue’ and no amount of sleep is helping me get through ...
  • Guess who’s back, back again

    And we are back to the chemotherapy outpatients ward! Last week I was there for my pre assessment. Back to blood taken, getting weighed, covid tests and more books to fill out. I hadn’t realised how much I had missed the girls there until I wen...
  • If at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again

    It’s been a week since my appointment with my oncologist. There has been a lot to take and trying to do it with the world’s worst cold ever has been a struggle. So I spent most of the time in bed. Long story short the meeting was a bit of...
  • Don’t you, forget about me

    I’ve had so many appointments this week it’s been mental. I had a review with my surgeon to Wednesday. Long story short she was really happy with the operation and how I was healing up. The cancer was spread right into my armpit which is ...
  • You wouldn’t even recognise me anymore

    It’s been two weeks now since surgery and everything seems to be healing up well. The mastectomy itself has been no issues at all. The lymph node removal has been that painful bit. Under my armpit and round my back is still swollen and very ten...
  • Put your hands, up put your hands up

    I went into hospital a week ago today for my single simple left breast mastectomy with full lymph node removal. I checked into hospital for 7:30am with a nice private side room. The anaesthetist came to see me at 8am and then the surgeon’s team...
  • We came here to party

    Friday was the first day of breast cancer awareness month, so I thought what better day to have a pink party and boob funeral. I dressed up as a huge inflatable tit and invited 15 of the most amazing women to my house for food and wine and all things...
  • When two become one

    Wednesday was my consultation with the surgeon, which was a bit of a mess truth be told. It was kind of mad with myself for going in with such a firm idea of what I wanted and expected them to do. Feedback for the care team is they should really set ...
  • Hanging on the telephone

    18 minutes before my chemo appointment was due to start yesterday, I had a phone call from my oncologist to say it had been cancelled. Again. I was only there on Monday morning for my pre assessment and while I was there asked really nicely if there ...
  • Take me to my beach

    Since all of this cancer malarkey started back in April, my routine has been shot to shit. To most that wouldn’t be so bad but I’m little creature of habit and love my ordered life. I like to know what I’m doing when how, who with a...