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Yesterday mum had such a good day. She was up, dressed and finally not confused. She was actually on the same planet as us all and she looked like her old self. She had been on a drip to push the calcium back and flush it out and it appeared to be working. My hopes ran high and I almost forgot she has cancer with no chance of a cure! Then BANG today she has took a turn for the worse again. She is on O2, they said…

Well we went for the appointment at the Daycase unit at the chemo department and they said that mum's bloods were not right, there was a problem with the kidney function. The told us she could have chemo the following day but first to pop to have some more bloods taken. This we did then took her home. We had just settled her down and then I drove 30 miles home and dad called me to say the hospital had asked for mum…

My sister called today to tell me that the district nurse had been to visit mum today and she had called the doctor out due to the pain. The doctor then wanted to put mum on a drip. My dad refused as mum has a hospital appointment tomorrow. Apprently mum has not been very lucid today and she is very confused. I am worried as tomorrow I am taking her to the chemo clinic for a visit as she is due to start chemo,…

I feel so bloody useless. I live 30 miles away from my mum and dad, have a busy job that requires me to be on top of my game otherwise I put lifes at risk and I feel I cannot do enough to help. I love my mum so much and want to spend every minute of every day with her but it is just not possible but I feel bad about it. My sister is always there at the right time helping out and being all practical and I am not. When…