Somebody on my multiply web-site kindly sent me this prayer just after I was diagnosed, at first I was too shocked to even look at the words. But, after coming to terms with the situation and finding the strength to read them thoroughly, I found they gave me courage.
Dear Father.
'I have developed an illness, which we have all often feared. I'm afraid, and lonely. Questions crowd my mind: Will I be cured ? Will there…
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The oldest and strongest emotion for the human race is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear - is a fear of the unknown.
It's this waiting that's doing me in, for me it seems worse that my original diagnosis. I start my second course of chemo Today, in three weeks time it should all be over. Then it's another CT scan to see if it's worked. If it has and if all the previous reports are successful, then it's into…
I am meeting the surgical team once again at The Marsden, in Surrey. They are finally going to tell me if they are now willing to carry out my operation, an Ivor Lewis procedure. Funnily enough, the thought of the op and recovery doesn't bother me at all - but what does bother me is their refusal.
The fist time I met the surgeon he seemed to have some doubt as to whether or not I was fit enough, but…
Because of the chemotherapy course I'm on - I need a lot of extra sleep if and when exhausted. On Saturday afternoon I was having a nap, a really deep 10 minute sleep. A tap, tap, tap on my bedroom window woke me, and then I heard a Police siren. Through the drawn curtain I could see something flapping it's wings, at first I thought maybe a halloween vampire bat. It was a parakeet perched on the window sill making all…
