HatzJ's blog

My Cousin had his operation today to remove his lump, they took his thyroid and some glands just to make sure, just what they did with my mum when she first found her lump, but in her breast.. and so its been another day of waiting for news... another day of jumping everytime the phone rings, i know they cant tell us any more today, but i cant help but worry. I know my mums case was bad, and lots and lots of people survive…

Thanks to those who relpied to my last blog...since joining this site, its amazed me how total strangers have managed to offer more comfort and advice than my friends who ive known for years. I wish my mum knew about this site when she was alive. Its such a relief to know that other people feel the same as me, to know that what im feeling is normal, and to know that its alright to be upset, to feel these things... my…

Its nearly been 5 months since my mum died now.. and these past couple of days ive been feeling completly lost, lonly and worse than i have done for ages and i dont know why. The first weeks after mum died i was like on some hyper active over drive, not crying just keeping myself so busy organising everything, trying to keep going because deep down i think i knew if i stopped i wouldnt have been able to cope, gradually…