Sunday 26th Sept 2010: This may be my last entry as I am really panicking and petrified of Tuesday and don't know if I will make it or not and come through the major operation, sorry really negative and I guess thats normal just now. Had a word with Hubby tonight as to what he would do if I didn't make it, he said he doesn't know; so for last few hours I have been uploading videos to my facebook page and have put together my service that I want and run off the original layout and songs etc for him. If the worst happens, then he has nothin to do but follow up my plan. If I can't take control or get any control over the cancer etc, then I will have the last word. Ok now a very deep breath........... Roll on Tuesday 28th September 2010.
