Having the last word: If I don't make it. Panicking and Petrified.

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Sunday 26th Sept 2010: This may be my last entry as I am really panicking and petrified of Tuesday and don't know if I will make it or not and come through the major operation, sorry really negative and I guess thats normal just now. Had a word with Hubby tonight as to what he would do if I didn't make it, he said he doesn't know; so for last few hours I have been uploading videos to my facebook page and have put together my service that I want and run off the original layout and songs etc for him. If the worst happens, then he has nothin to do but follow up my plan. If I can't take control or get any control over the cancer etc, then I will have the last word. Ok now a very deep breath........... Roll on Tuesday 28th September 2010.

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Donna hun of course you'll make it!  These surgeons know exactly what they're doing and they would not carry out a procedure they don't feel will be successful.

    I understand why you are feeling the way you are.  It's a major op and it must be very scary waiting to go in and have it done.  Will be thinking about you on Tuesday and praying that everything goes brilliantly and you are soon back in chat with us all.  God Bless.  Caroline XX

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Morning carrot tops, I feel for you and understand why you are  petrified - surgeons only operate if they think you have a good chance of survival, otherwise they would just tell you to go home and enjoy every day.  Easier said than done though, so look forward to reading how you got on very soon, good luck to you and all your family - its not the end for you its a new beginning.  Ann x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    good luck carrot i will be thinking of you xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Morning Carrot Top!

    Understandably you are feeling scared, and my heart goes out to you. The same as nutcracker really, they wont operate unless you have good chances of survival. I know it doesn't help they way your feeling, I understand all to well mum was due to have an operation Wed but has a chest infection so its been cancelled :(

    Any way good luck for the op, will be thinking of you, and dont you think about going any where just yet your still very much needed here!!!!

    Look forward to reading your blog after op and hearing all about your super duper recovery!!!

    Huge Hugs

    Tiggs x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Mate - OK no point saying don't worry, I hope now you have put things in order for the future you might sit back and have a glass of wine or even a stong cup of tea !

    Its natural to worry or even be petrified with fear - but as your other mates have already said the surgeon is experienced and would not want to waste his time if he thought a failure was a forgone conclusion.

    Please take care, make sure you take your time during recovery and then come back to us all on here and try not  to feel too embarassed about how you were feeling today

    Hugs Mate

    John xx