It has been a month today since I lost my Danny. Somehow it seems harder now, I guess the numbness and shock have worn off. I miss him so much! I am going back to work on Dec 7, it is too hard to stay at home alone and try to make up reasons to go outside. I don't know if I will be up to working but at least will be among very caring and supportive coworkers. I am trying to get through the mounds of paperwork necessary…
I had a very relaxing and peaceful time in Newfoundland. It is so beautiful there. It was exactly what I needed, a complete break. Now back to reality. It was very difficult to come home to an empty house. Today I decided I can't look at Dan's empty chair in the living room so am rearranging all the furniture. I will still see the chair but in a different spot so hope that will make it a bit easier. I do feel somewhat…
Almost a week at home alone and it hurts so much. I miss him so much. I am going to get away for a week on Sunday, going to visit a relative in Newfoundland where I have never been and have no memories. I do hope that will help, I don't have much interest in anything right now. Just trying to get through each day as it comes. I did get a note to be off work until December and I expect by then, I will be not want to…
Family has all gone today back to their lives far away. A friend will be with me later and until I am ready to be alone again. It just gets harder every day as each da there is a little more time to think about everything that happened. It has been such a horrible three months and it has only been three months! I still can't take it all in. He was so well in July, we had a lovely cruise around Britain and I am so…
My Danny died early this morning. He hung on as long as he could and fought so hard to stay with me. I am lost without him.
