Family has all gone today back to their lives far away. A friend will be with me later and until I am ready to be alone again. It just gets harder every day as each da there is a little more time to think about everything that happened. It has been such a horrible three months and it has only been three months! I still can't take it all in. He was so well in July, we had a lovely cruise around Britain and I am so glad we did do that. Then from the beginning of August, doctors and hospitals and emergency rooms and in and out of hospital. I miss him so much already. How can I go through my life without him?
