Few en djoy being in hospital; for most patients it is a time of crisis, even if clinically, their treatment is routine. Three weeks ago in a Polish state hospital, I had a radical cystectomy due to a diagnosis of bladder cancer. Post-op this can result in pain, discomfort, and psychological stress. What shocked me about the experience was not any lack of clinical professionalism, but the amount of noise on the ward.…
How do we come to terms when the one we love the most is no longer here? Walking around the house and seeing things which constantly remind us of them. The agonizing pain that we feel, the exhaustion that has been exerted onto us, sometimes we feel like there is no escape. That’s how I felt anyways. Every time I go to the same spots that me and Sheila went to in London, I could burst out and cry. This narrows down…
The saying goes ‘I could count on one hand how many...” is what I wish I were typing right now when talking about the number of people in my life who have been affected by cancer, but sadly I need a lot more hands. What kind of emotions do we feel when we are the outsiders looking in? What kind of thoughts run through our heads? My main thought was how can I be the omnipotent person and make it all go away. Why do I feel…
Chapter 30 – Radiotherapy Begins
The first one of nineteen sessions arrive or fifteen plus four as they call it. The fifteen being three weeks plus four boosters which are more intensive.
The time goes really quickly for my first few as I am in on time. Even when I have a delay it is only about forty five minutes, usually when a scanner breaks down. The staff have all been brilliant trying to get us on a different…
Chapter 26 – Prep for Surgery
Pre op day and my obs are a bit low, but they seem happy so fingers crossed. I get home and begin to feel rubbish again. I do not need a full blown cold now, or the earache to go with it!
I have less than a week to get over this cold, but I am getting worse. It is so bad I am having to take Lemsip which I find repulsive. I take the blackcurrant one as it is mildly better than the lemon…
