Feelings of depression

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Hello everyone

My cancer has returned and apparently there's more of it, albeit still Stage 1 Grade 1.

I've had my CT and MRI scans although I haven't been told the results yet. The MDT meeting is today, so I should get a call very shortly.

But it's got to be a hysterectomy.  I know that.

I thought I was fine with it.  But I don't know if it's the thought of the surgery, the Mirena not having kept the cancer away, or what.  But I'm starting to feel that my mental health is taking a bit of a pounding.

But I can't describe how I feel.  It's tedious having to wait, but I think I've gotten used to that over the last 18 months, and it's not as if I'm waiting for something that might never happen.  I will get told what the state of things is and a date for the surgery.

I guess I'm just feeling lost.  But I don't know what I want.

Pendle

  • Sorry about yours news..

    Hopefully  you will soon get a date for surgery and a treatment plan .

    In the meantime try to do things you have put off doing particularly nice things if at all possible .Things that you enjoy but don't usually make the time for.

    Big hugs xo

  • Hi Pendle, 

    yes the waiting is awful I waited 7 weeks for the hysterectomy, only 18 days ago, and my mind was out of control, it’s normal reactions to it all and I’m sure it will pass as things move on and change. I did feel relief when surgery was over although I wasn’t happy to part with my bits, it feels so drastic. Once results are all in you’ll receive a letter most likely to see surgeon oncologist and pre assessment. 
    Hope you’re feeling better. 
    x

  • Hello Pendle

    I'm really sorry to hear about your recent cancer diagnosis. It must have been awful to hear this the first time ,let alone the fact it had returned. I do hope that your suffering with this condition can come to an end soon .Hopefully you will receive a date for your hysterectomy very soon and some kind of treatment plan.

    It's completely normal to feel depressed at a time like this.I can understand your frustration with the Mirena coil .I'm not sure if it will work for me moving  forward or not but we only have hope and by the sounds of it you've done a great job of holding onto that so far so please don't be too down on yourself .The courage and strength you've shown just getting through each  day is admirable.

    You may feel a litle lost now but hopefully soon you'll have some positive outcomes and results and a future treatment plan.I wish you truly all the best!!