Feeling a bit stupid

It’s not silly at all!  I am just dyeing mine and I am having just the same thoughts! ( due to start chemo mid Jan)  I wondered whether I was being silly ‘wasting’ a pack of dye, when I will be losing it soon.

Honestly, I think I am more attached to my hair than I was to my uterus!!  I know we can be rational about it at times, but we are allowed to have wobbles - hair is such a constantly visible part of us and we will miss it.  Do you have some scarves ready?  A friend has sent me some things she used after her chemo and I feel better knowing I have something to cover it with.  X

I have some hats ready and I am seeing the wig people when I go to my next session on 24th.  It’s just the waiting game for it to happen now which makes it seem worse.  I know that this is the best treatment and hopefully at the end it will be good news and it will all be worth it just wish I didn’t have to lose my hair along the way

Hi Rach_E Oh my love I know exactly what you're feeling. I was one who confidently though I won't lose mine but 2 weeks to the day it started coming out, not in clumps just quite tidily. I tend to go outside to comb it so the birds have got plenty of nesting material LOL

I really did have a boo the other day as I'd been trying to use dry shampoo but didn't like it.  Hubby'd taken a big clump out of the shower trap so I washed in the kitchen sink which has a good strainer thingy. I'm not vain about my hair but realisation did kick in then. I'd already bought 4 turbans on Amazon which are plain colours but you can bling them up.

Yesterday I looked around in the chemo site and could judge how far the line people were. There we 3 like me, two in turbans, me with a mohican gone wrong - bald bit down the middle! LOL. One lady had lovely growth of shiny hair and there was a chap with green hair - quite a character.

Don't worry about the rant. It'll grow back. I'm going to make my appointment to see the wig person next week, can't decide whether to go red-head or blonde!

New year hugs your way, Barb xx

Hiya

I've heard there is an ice-cap you could ask if it would save your hair. If you Google itIt's usually worn for 15 minutes before each chemotherapy treatment. You can find out about scalp cooling caps on the Macmillan website.or NHS.

Hope this helps. X

Hi Rach

It really will be ok, mine came out exactly 16 days after chemo #1 , had seen my wig lady 3 days before and she has said how stable it was and she reckoned I would have another few weeks….that was Tuesday, by Friday it began to shred and by Sunday I phoned her and had a consult and she shaved it off for me…..like you I was so upset at the thought of loosing it, but reality is it’s more upsetting when it’s starts to fall out…I smiled when she had finished as it was such a relief … something less to worry about… you believe that everyone will know your wearing a wig but they really don’t….my wig was a style I had never had with warm tones and highlights… I didn’t have a bad hair day for months….

My hair came back about 5 weeks after last chemo….by 3 months it was about 2 inches and now 6 months later a good 3 inches….platinum (57 years young) and curly…..so just getting enough weight in it now to try and give it a style…very soft …it’s different but not in a bad way…

I would also say that although I’m super positive..it was bleak for a few weeks adjusting to the new look…thinking people were staring etc..(they weren’t) ….so you really aren’t being silly… it’s a defining moment…I took a very deep breath, cried a bit and focused on the end game…

you will loose hair in other places too, although my arm hair remained and my eyebrows right up to between chemo #5 and 6…and then came back within about 4 weeks…

Big hug 

Sue x 

Think the wait for it to come out makes it worse and it’s all a lot to deal with at 34.  I’m meant to be getting married in October and I’m worried I will “look sick” on our photos and I don’t want to think that when I look at them.  I feel like once it’s gone and I’m used to it I will rock the bald look.  I see the wig people when I have my next treatment on 24th but feel like it may have come out by then x