1 year later……..

Hi everyone, haven’t posted for a while i Am trying to cancer behind me but it is hard! So today is one year since my world was turned upside down inside out. At half one today will be the exact time I was told I remember it so well I was told in a very blunt way but at 30 at the time how ever I would of bein told it would have bein still the same, i rember thinking this doctor is crazy reading me someone else’s notes I only came to get my coil checked! Well it was my notes unfortunately, so then I was introduced to my CNS and I was just thinking go away leave me alone I want to go home, but any way I stayed with her and it was the best thing she understood listened to me explained things. Two days later was my scan couldn’t believe I was going to a cancer hospital (ignorant Ino) even the taxi driver looked at me funny when I asked him to take me to claterbridge. I broke down as soon as I got into that hospital couldn’t cope until a lovley lady called jo came along sat with me holded my hand I couldn’t of got threw that with out her! Back at the women’s hospital a week later my cns was with me because of covid I couldn’t take any one so she agreed she would be wating for me when I arrived. Results came surgery only should cure this. Operation came 31st wasn’t to bad was done by key hole so I was home next day with paracetamol and I took it easy for a few weeks hard with two kids lol but I did it! Results came two days before Christmas surgery was the only treatment I needed I should be happy right??? But no I was relived but not happyI hadn’t realised until after the treatment how much affect it has in your mental health and was really bad for me. So now a year later I am in therapy and I am also on anti depressants but hopefully one day that will be in the past to! So now I realise how fragile life is enjoy it and I took that for granted before my diagnosis I love walks with the kids,carving pumpkins for Halloween,taking them school every day.I even have two pets nowa rabbit and a puppy I wasn’t an animal person I am now lol! My advice if your just starting your journey is just stop breathe and trust the experts the science has came along in recent years! I couldn’t of gotten This far with out my family and the lovely people I met along the way I thank them from the bottom of my heart, also this group has bein really helpful and supportive thank you.    Thanks for reading take care love natalie xxxxxx