Plagued with Anxiety Attacks

Hi Ms Muggle Hi Jan, felt quite upset by your closing remarks - we're all here as much as we can be to support you, don't forget my love we're all going through our own private hell at the moment. I'm also anxiously waiting for the date for a CT scan and echocardiograph as I know something's not right.

My hubby also has the empathy of a plank - that's being unkind to wood! - and accuses me of being a drama queen yet at the moment he's got his own health issues, one of which will be sorted on 19/11 when he has his hip replacement. In the meantime he's awful to live with!

If you need to talk to someone give the Macmillan Support helpline a call, freephone number is below, they'll be able to chat and reassure you.

Hugs, Barb xx

Hello Barb,

I apologize if my remarks seemed insensitive and selfish. I do realize that we each have problems and are desperate to deal with them. At the moment, I'm filled with dread and fear. To be honest, I don't know how I can deal with it. I've come  to greet every day with apprehension.

Honestly, I don't believe there's anything or anyone who can offer support or shed light on what's wrong with me that I just am not 'me' anymore. I feel like crying and crying yet with my husband here all the time with his passive/aggressive attitude, I haven't even that luxury. Being cheerful and upbeat is the only attitude he accepts.

So, really, there is nowhere to go.

Ms Muggle xx

Hello

Hang in there!! You are doing so well keeping it all together. Don’t forget that.  Us women are so strong I feel…  don’t give up… why should you? 

Have you tried yoga? It’s so calming … I’m hoping it will help? Do you have access to YouTube? Lots of yoga videos there…

sending you lots of love

keep in touch with us all.  We all here to help each other xx ️️

Hello Barb

Hope you well.  Wishing you lots of luck with your CT scan. Lots of love and good wishes and will be thinking of you ️️️ xxxx

I've had my pelvis, abdo and lungs CT scans today. Yesterday I took my mother who has dementia shopping. I was with her from 10am until 4pm and I was shattered what with pushing her in a wheelchair and answering the same questions over and over again. Then having to go and search for her when she was suddenly able to walk when I turned my back for a minute! She rings me and my sister on average 6-10 times a day. So today I was in a miserable mood. I was sitting in the waiting room with about 15.other.patients thinking something is wrong here I'm not a cancer patient. It happens to other unfortunate people not me. I was in hospital 8 times last year between September and December with internal bleeding from non alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver. I really think I've had more than my fair share of bad luck. My GP sent me to A and E last week as she thought I needed a blood transfusion as I'm so anaemic. The A and E doctor said that I was suffering from exhaustion and needed to rest and get some decent sleep. He even gave me Diazepam for two weeks. He said that I was very upbeat and positive about the cancer. Little did he know that it's all an act!

Hi Lucki2021, got the date for my CT Scan 8th November so just another couple of weeks to wait, just want a little reassurance everything's ok!

Hugs, Barb x

Hello Jan Ms Muggle I’m so sorry to hear that you’re struggling with anxiety. It’s an awful thing to have and as you say it can be difficult to separate things out whilst you’re going through it. If breathing exercises cause you stress, maybe try counting (whichever way helps eg backwards from a hundred) or maybe write down what’s bothering you, how it makes you feel. Sometimes the act of getting it all down on paper and help to clear your mind or at least to order your thought, at least that’s what I’ve found. Different techniques work for different people and can take time to work before you begin to see some effects, so please  don’t give up trying. I think your feelings of fear and dread are quite normal in your current situation and if we are honest, many of us will recognise that feeling of just “not feeling like me”.  Have you had a look at the Anxiety Uk website. You can find them here https://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/. They have lots of useful information and links. Please find someone and somewhere where you can go to cry if that’s what you need to do. We care about you Jan and we’re standing quietly with you in support. Love and gentle hugs xx

Ms Muggle

Hi Jan. Just had a thought, why don't you sign up to Macmillan Telephone Buddies where you'll get a weekly call from someone with whom you can talk through your anxieties. Just click on the link I've created. 

You have my sympathies as regards hubby, mine is very similar, if I express my fears I'm a dram queen yet daily for over a year I've heard about every twinge of pain he's going through with his hip. His op date for a replacement has come through for 19/11 thank goodness.

Hugs, Barb x