Sorry for this post, I do not want to upset or stress people out. X
I have had an update this week, the one I didn't want. My chemo didn't work, the stupid cancer continued to grow. I now face a prognosis of 18 months.
I wil be treated, but for me to have a good quality of life for those 18 months. I am devastated. I am only 46. My beautiful children are only 14 and 17. I married my lovely husband in August...his first wife died 10 years ago, cancer!
This is not how it was meant to be.
I am clinging to any hope, any glimmer. I am desperate to prove them wrong. It could happen, couldn't it?
How do I stop thinking that one of my days has gone? I want time to stop right now please.
I feel cheated and scared.
I'm so sorry for you and your family to have to deal with this is brutal. Have you asked about immunotherapy, some ladies have done very well on this, if you type it in the search bar it may give you some results, hopefully someone having this or on a trial will be a long to connect with you. Take care xx
Thank you!
The treatment I have been referred for is immunotherapy...it was described to me as extending life by a few months. I will definitely look into this even more now. I will be treated at the Royal Marsden, and will make it clear I will take any trial on offer!
Thank you for replying. I read it as I cried in Sainsburys this evening! What a rollercoaster!
Royal Marsden are brilliant in this field, there are always new things they are trialling, yes I would be like you too and grab anything else on offer. Bless you as you try to understand this journey you didn't choose to travel . Take care and do reach out to us if needed xx
Hi JB2022 I’m so very sorry to read your chemo didn't work for you either. I was given that news 5 months ago. I was offered immunotherapy which I've been on for 4 months, Pembrolizumab and Lentavinib. It's proving very successful for some cancers, its a new treatment for our particular variety.
I found it hard going, very weak, the worst of the side effects After cycle 2 and 3 I was hospitalized with acute cholecystitis (10 and 7 days) which fortunately I'm ok now.
Ask your consultant about it. I pray you'll be suitable and it will work for you.
Hugs, Barb
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Hug, Barbara
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