Hi everyone, well, I had my 2nd session today at 10.30, not worried at all as I knew what to expect, however I felt a right numpty, everyone in our house has had or got colds, I woke up with a tickly cough, nothing major, absolutely fine getting prepared for treatment, as soon as the nurses left the room and the machine started I started feeling the tickle in my throat, cleared my throat as best as I could, but oh nooo, I started to cough and cough, well, as you know, having the applicator inserted and secured onto the metal thing is not the best time to cough, I started to panic waving my arms around like a mad woman, machine was turned off, nurses come leggin it into the room as I'm starting to wretch, they quickly removed everything so I bolted upright as I thought I was gonna be sick, I was so embarrassed, apologising constantly, the young male nurse got me some water, whilst I was recovering another nurse came in with a package, she said whilst youre recovering it's a good time to discuss dialators, she promptly pulled it out of the box and processed to tell me all about them, I'd recovered enough to carry on with the treatment, no more coughing thank god, afterwards I was apologising again and as I picked up my little brown package I said "well this thing now has a name, it's called Cillian Murphy" they laughed and referenced Peaky Blinders, saying nobody's ever gave their dialators a name before, it made me chuckle cos when I'm embarrassed I make little jokes to cover up my embarrassment, think I got out of there pretty quickly, on Thurs, my final session I'll be prepared with a throat lozenges just in case lol 
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Hi Proudnanny. Can't stop grinning at the thought that you had your presentation of the dilators and discussion during such an inappropriate moment. There you are coughing and choking tethered to a bed and you get a Cillian Murphy in reward! This couldn't be made up!
By now you should have finished so I hope the lozenges worked for you on your final session!
After I had my last Brachytherapy when I got back to the car I broke down in floods of tears. It must've been the cumulative effect of going through everything pretty much alone as you had to go everywhere alone due to Covid restrictions. I calmed myself down, switched on the ngine and sat there for a couple more minutes collecting myself. Then I thought "Oh my god, I've wet myself" Happily it was the heated seats going on as the temperature had dropped below 10 degrees!
Biggest hugs, Barb xx
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