Chemo cancelled

Hi Rach_E. I'm glad to hear that you've decided to go for counselling, you need to know your lumps and bumps are normal.

Sorry to hear your chemo was cancelled due to a wheezy chest, hopefully that'll clear up soon.

Hugs, Barb xx

Thanks for the reply MrsBJH I had a scan last month and was told there were no new growths and my macmillan nurse has said it’s highly unlikely to have changed since then but the overthinker in me gets the better of me as I know I have lumps and bumps I assume it’s to do with my weight. X

Hi Rach_E I'am so sorry to hear that you are feeling under the weather and have a wheezy chest. You did the right thing calling you nurse and arranging some counselling which will help you to cope a bit better.

You have been through so much and come such a long way, you are entitled to have a wobble. I think its natural for us to think that every lump and bump or ache and pain is related to our diagnosis so please try not be too hard on yourself, try to focus on your last scan result being so positive if you can.

 You are not beyond help, just get over this blip with your wheezy chest and get the rest of your chemo treatment complete and some counselling and hopefully you will feel much brighter.

Thinking of you Rach, sending you a big hug

Robin xx

Hi Robin27 thank you for your reply.  I just feel so stupid, feel like I should just be able to deal with things and get on.  Feels like it’s taking over my life at the moment if it’s not going for treatment then it’s another appointment and if I’m not at the hospital I’m stressing about what’s going on in my body.  I’m constantly thinking that the doctor is going to tell me my time is up and I don’t want to leave stacie or our son or my family anytime soon.  Feel like it’s hard work putting on a brave face for everyone and feel like I can’t cope with it all anymore. X

Hi Rach What you are feeling is not stupid at all. We all have times when we feel over whelmed by what is happening to us, you wouldn't be human in my view if you can sail through this unaffected in some way or another. 

I am only at the start of my journey so I can only imagine how hard and tiring it must be for you Rach.

I'am sure I will have bad days going forward too, and  I ask that you remind me of this conversation and encourage me to cut myself some slack and not be so hard on myself and reassure me of how strong and brave I'am to of come this far just like you have been, your amazing.

Your lovely family must be so proud of the warrior you are and how well you have done so far, and will continue to do when you are feeling better a bit stronger in yourself.

The beauty of this group is you are allowed to a brave and say how you are really feeling, you don't always have to put a brave face on it with us.

I have seen your posts supporting others, you are so kind and give great advice. Likewise we are here for you when you need us.

I hope that they can arrange the counselling you have requested quickly to give you the professional support and help.

I know its a bit of a cliche but tomorrow is a new day and hopefully things will feel much better with a good nights sleep.

Have a lovely cuddle with your son and Stacie and know we are all behind you.

Love Robin xxx