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Hi Tess, thinking of you as you try to work through this difficult time with your anxiety. It’s okay to feel like that but I know too how debilitating it can be. Not meaning to nag at all as I know it can be hard when anxiety sets in, but I’d like to encourage you to go for a little walk, even just 5 mins, and maybe see if you can notice signs of Spring in the hedgerows and people’s gardens. The camellias are out here where we are, and some of the flowering cherries and blackthorn have started to blossom, and the birds have been singing even at night. The physical exercise would help your body release endorphins and will also help protect you against DVTs which could still be an issue at this stage, especially as you’ve been quite sedentary. Sending you a virtual hug.

Thank you so much for your message.

My partner is on holiday next week, so he also has said the same thing, he wants to take me out even if it is just going to Nero's for a coffee which I've not done for months. I just need to take the first step out.xxx

Hi Tess57, Bless, I can understand your anxiety. We can't believe that little bit of PMB could lead to this! 

I was regraded for stage 1a/grade 1 to stage 1b/ 3 serous after my histology results were in. I was told my body was cancer free. I was offered 3 sessions of brachytherapy (optional) to prevent recurrence. I took my Oncologists's advice and went ahead.

Had 3 quarterly internal check-ups and all was clear. My annual check-up showed all clear in the gynaecological operation site.  Between my 3rd check-up and annual I started to experience unexplained shortness of breath and abdominal pain. My team didn't think it related. My GP referred me after other tests for a CT scan which sadly showed it's popped back up everywhere, masses in abdo, peritoneum and Omentum and lesions on liver and spleen.

Yesterday I had my 5th chemo cycle. The CT scan I had between my 3rd & 4th have shown the masses reducing as have the lesions on liver and spleen. Once I have my 6th chemo I'll have  short break to plan the way forward. Sadly I'm now classed as incurable and will need palliative treatment for the rest of my life, which I intend to be as long as possible. I'm not negative about it, just a little P*SS*D off as I've never been ill in my life - I'm not ill now - I'm just coming up to 68 and I honestly feel fine

Talk to your Oncologist, you can tell him about me if you wish. I'd take the offered chemo, it's not as bad as I thought it would be, just a couple of days a week after when I feel my body isn't in sync with the world, blooming cold without hair in this weather!

I'm sorry if this post may upset you, that's honestly not my intention, I just want to make you aware of what might conceivably happen if you choose to take the "no further treatment" route

Sending you hugs to relieve your anxiety, Barb xx

Tess, do you go outside into your garden at all ? 

I have been in the garden a couple of times. It's a small garden, mainly paved. Only really been in just to walk  to help after my op. xx

Hi Tess57 I agree with MarmiteFan59, getting out for small walks helps immeasurably to your well-being. Spring is everywhere and I'm fortunate to see the first lambs with their mums in the field next to me. 7 mums and babies so far, more arriving everyday.

Big hugs, Barb

MarmiteFan59 can you pm me please? Bxx

That’s a really good start. Do you have pots with plants in? Things growing up the fences? I’d be interested to know what you can see. Do you have any garden at the front? What does the road outside your house look like?

Yes we have a small cottage garden with loads of different shrubs and wild flowers. A couple of trees and Have some snowdrops and bluebells at the moment. Lots of bird feeders. No garden at the front to speak of.xxx

Your garden sounds lovely! I’d suggest setting yourself small achievable targets to start with, to get yourself used to being outside. How many times a day are you going into your back garden? And how busy is the road you live on?

Unfortunately the road is quite busy, but I've only really been in the garden once a week if that. So will go out this afternoon a do some light sweeping. Thanks for the push. Ok can only try. You have really helped me. Let you know how I got on. xx