Yep, I've been told today that it's returned. And i have to have surgery for a mastectomy.
I have a lot of decisions to make and questions to be asked/answered.. because as some of you know when your told the 1st time it's a big shock. But to be told that after all the chemo, radiotherapy and endless hospital appointments, it's back 2yrs later, so was all that pain,sickness,watching your friends and family suffering and feeling rubbish all the time worth it!!
I am so angry?, why do I feel like I've let everyone down?. Why am I so disappointed with myself?. Why do i want to say i don't want to and can't go through any of it again?
I think in a couple of days my head will calm down and sort myself out... but how??? xx
