It's back!

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Yep, I've been told today that it's returned. And i have to have surgery for a mastectomy. 

I have a lot of decisions to make and questions to be asked/answered.. because as some of you know when your told the 1st time it's a big shock. But to be told that after all the chemo, radiotherapy and endless hospital appointments, it's back 2yrs later, so was all that pain,sickness,watching your friends and family suffering and feeling rubbish all the time worth it!!

I am so angry?, why do I feel like I've let everyone down?. Why am I so disappointed with myself?. Why do i want to say i don't want to and can't go through any of it again?

I think in a couple of days my head will calm down and sort myself out... but how??? xx

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    I am so sorry to see this has been confirmed. I remember your post from a couple of weeks ago when you were concerned this would be the outcome. Do you know yet what other treatments you will need beyond the mastectomy? 

    We are here for you. 

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  • Hi, i think they said a mastectomy is the only option because I had treatment the first time and apparently I can't have radiotherapy twice! 

    They did say they are waiting for a few more results to identify the type of cancer. But I'm guessing it's the same as before.

    A year ago my mammogram was clear, so in just over a year it's come back again. 

    They've said i can have a reconstruction at the same time, so i will need to consider all of my options.

    I know you're all very helpful and understanding so thank you for the support xx

  • Yes, it’s also my understanding that you can’t have radiotherapy twice in the same area. I don’t have experience of reconstruction but it’s good you can have it done at the same time. 

    Quite understand the frustration and anger and disappointment but please try not to blame yourself. My oncologist’s favoured expression about TNBC is it’s tricky. Certainly my journey has been a bit messy and has involved being treated twice but I am living to tell the tale. 

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  • Sorry to hear this can I ask where you offered maschectomy when you had your first diagnoses 

  • I had tnbc stage 3 and it was a 7cm tumour and two lymph nodes under arm and one behind chest muscle had cancer I had chemo and during chemo another lymph node became cancerous I had double masectomy and reconstruction with implants and 8 lymph nodes removed all the cancer was gone except that one lymph node that became cancerous during chemo I got cancer free results and I am now getting radiotherapy