Hi all, I doubt I will receive a response any time soon but I’ve been up all night so worried about my Dad.
He came by and casually said he had doctors in the afternoon. I asked why as he never has to go. He said “blood test, it’s nothing”
i text my mom she went along with it until around an hour later she rang me to tell me he had found a lump in his testicle and had already been for a blood test last week. Only mentioned high cholesterol, and was having repeated tests today. He went for them and was told his sodium and electrolytes were high. I asked if he had also had marker blood work done and was told the nurse never mentioned any results for that and she was unable to get the blood so he’s going back on the weekend.
he has a hernia in his stomach. He’s always had back pain. Recently he has had quite bad hip/groin pain which I’m hoping is just something to do with the hernia.
I am just praying his lump is something benign, hes 56, doesn’t smoke, doesn’t drink unless he’s out for an occasion, not super often. He’s a truly brilliant man and I’m so worried about losing him, I’ve cried all day and night, I have small children and a 9 year old and I’m trying to make excuses for my eyes being so red and so swollen, I just want to curl up and hide somewhere until the wait is over to see what cards are being dealt. He is awaiting a scan date confirmation so that will be the ultimate answer.
I went to sleep at midnight and woke up at 2:47am with this horrible feeling and then I remembered and it hit me again. It’s now 4:50am I have to face the world, school runs and I don’t think I can do it.
I feel so awful for my dad as he’s having to go to work. My mom said he’s scared. He didn’t want to tell us but had to as we would’ve all been questioning why he’s at the doctors.
I know everyone says their Dad is the best but mine absolutely is and I’m so unbelievably scared I want to be there for him he said he just doesn’t want anyone to worry. I love him so so much and I didn’t want to make my mom and dad worry by messaging them as I don’t want them to worry about my 3 children. I’m 31 on my own with the kids, my dad comes and does school run for me if he’s not in work which he did this morning and I just can’t bear the thought of losing him. Sorry if I’m rambling sorry if this is not where this is supposed to be posted I just had to write it out and put it all somewhere please give me hope, experiences and wisdom. I’ve spent too long on Google and it’s the waiting that feels so cruel.
thanks for reading.
Welcome to our community, I hope you find it both informative and supportive.
I am Steve one of the community champions and my expereince of cancer is via my wife who has Leiomyosarcoma.
I do not often post in this forum, though I have some expereince with cysts and hydroceles that have sent me to the doctor in the past and then on to hospital for ultrasound. It is good that your dad is aware and went to the doctor as that is the only way we get to find out what is happening.
Many of the commuity will remember their time between that first visit to the GP and that point where they are diagnosed or not as being really difficult.
People might more often see me on our Family and friends forum where we help to support each other, often we would recommend being very careful with Google since it seems to throw up more horror stories than good news.
Something I found helped me was looking at your feelings when someone has cancer as being able to recognize the emotions and accept them as valid can help to make them feel less overwhelming. You might also like to have a look at our pages on talking to children and teenagers. We were lucky to and got lots of support through our sons schools.
<<hugs>>
Steve
