Awaiting appointments- overthinking?

Hi Plutoandthemoon. Everything you are feeling is completely normal, as this is how I felt.  I have had two bcc's removed from my face, both looked totally different.  One, like yours, was like a transparent grain of rice which was near my nostril but on my cheek.  The other was a scab under my eye right up by my tear duct near top of nose, which I thought was where my glasses had rubbed.  The one near my nostril was photographed by a skin laboratory that Bupa use and we had to email the imagine.  Within 10 minutes I had a phone call telling me it was definitely a bcc.  I saw a dermatologist first who then referred me to a plastic surgeon.  I had them both removed, by skin flap and skin graft surgery.  All done whilst I was awake and I am now fine.  It wasnt painful at all, I was a nervous wreck.  It looked unsightly for a few weeks but then started to fade and is hardly visible now.  The melanoma clinic maybe just the dermatology department, so I wouldnt be alarmed by that.  I was 73 so not young to endure all this, but I got through it. My Plastic surgeon was so kind and reassurng and told me that in time everything would be fine and it is.  I am very very careful now in the sun, as I was before, but use Factor 50 suncream almost 365 days a year and especially now the sun is out.  I am paranoid about it.  This site is brilliant. It helped me through my ordeal and people are so kind and supportive to one another.  Please ask me anything you want to know and I will try and help you and let us know how you go on.  Please dnt be afraid to ask anything and everything you are feeling is completely normal.  Good Luck xx

Thank you so much for your reply. It has definitely made me take a big calming breath! I am just so angry at myself, because honestly I have been reckless with sun safety. When I was a teenager I used sunbeds (my mum used to rent them once a year or so) and then as an adult I have lived in Australia and travelled Asia extensively and still not worn sunscreen on a regular basis. It’s absolutely my own stupid fault and now at 38 I can’t believe that I would have been so reckless. 
Everything I have seen says that if teledermatology shows nothing to worry about you will be discharged back to the gp so I’m assuming the worst based on the fact that I have been asked to attend a face to face appointment. It’s really just the waiting and not knowing at the minute that’s driving me crazy! I’m counting down the minutes to my appointment. I’m so glad everything has worked out well for you and you found comfort and support on here x