Hi everyone, newbie here.

Newly diagnosed with prostate cancer diagnosis of T4, N1, M1b, with a presenting PSA of
45.7 and Gleason 5+5=10 on histology (with neuroendocrine differentiation).

For the record, I'm not a medical geek,  I simply lifted the above from one of my med reports.

Having been diagnosed, a couple of weeks ago I was admitted to hospital with failing renal function (I already had a catheter in because of urine retention) and it seemed my kidneys had decided to come out in sympathy. The hours spent in the Acute Emergency Unit before transfer to a specialist unit at another hospital were a little surreal, as I was laughing and joking with the staff, with no idea just how serious things actually were.

Anyway, they managed to sort me out with a nephrostomy, and things seem to be working once again.

Putting feelings into words isn't easy for me, I live alone since my wife passed away and have no other family, but I am trying to be the same me, if that makes any sense. I cannot find it in myself to feel self-pity, but if I said I wasn't apprehensive about the future, I'd be lying.

So far, I've had a double injection of degarelix, with more to come on a monthly basis, and an upcoming appointment with a clinical oncologist to explore other options.

My new journey has begun.