Today she walked away from me with a gentle peck on the lips - what I've grown to expect since before the prostate cancer diagnosis three years ago. It's just a 'muscle memory' response from her, but I'm missing the love and dedication we once had. It's now 15 years since she last allowed me sex, or any sort of meaningful connection - yes, we hold hands occasionally, we kiss each other before sleeping every night - but no 'true connection' where we hold each other in any symbol of 'love'.
Is it time for me to walk away and find someone else that can give me the love that I had, and certainly desire, or should I just give up and accept that her love is virtually 'dead'?
