Today she walked away from me with a gentle peck on the lips - what I've grown to expect since before the prostate cancer diagnosis three years ago. It's just a 'muscle memory' response from her, but I'm missing the love and dedication we once had. It's now 15 years since she last allowed me sex, or any sort of meaningful connection - yes, we hold hands occasionally, we kiss each other before sleeping every night - but no 'true connection' where we hold each other in any symbol of 'love'.
Is it time for me to walk away and find someone else that can give me the love that I had, and certainly desire, or should I just give up and accept that her love is virtually 'dead'?
Hello AndyK,
I'm no expert on relationships & I'm sure others will be along with much wiser words than mine shortly. It must be so hard for you feeling like this & have been a difficult decision to reach out for help.
The one thing that you haven't mentioned is whether you have tried discussing your feelings with your partner & what her thoughts are. Talking and being open & honest with each other, however hard that may be, is a positive step to understanding what's going on.
I hope you can find the answer you are looking for.
Best Wishes
Brian
Oh dear, you sound like you need some help with your approach to your partners actions or reactions like Buzzers says.
When I had difficulties with similar thoughts about my life and love I did something different to my usual ways. Instead of having the normal reaction I was in a rut with I tried something different. What I realised was that this woman beside me acting or reacting like we hardly know each other, was and still could be the apple of my eye. When I realised it was me that had to do something or nothing would change, I gave up my time to hold her hand, buy her flowers occasionally, sit with her and watch mindless tv series I would never watch on my own, drink a drink with her with a candle or two glowing away or giving her a real cuddle.
When I realised I had to change to save what we had, even if it was a different love, I saw a change in her.
I work hard on giving her my time, and she realised I noticed her and needed her and after a bit of time we had steered the ship off the rocks.
I was lucky, she wanted the same ME that I used to be a I wanted the old HER.
Like buzzers says, talking to her first is a must, but if you change, even slightly, she’ll notice.
Good luck
Good morning Andy
i am no expert in relationships . My husband and I have been married 54 years and as we get older the need for intimacy starts to diminish for some . You mentioned 12 years so it’s a long term relationship and possibly her needs have lapsed due to hormonal changes too.
is it worth suggesting a councillor to enable you both to talk. My husband struggled with the no sex drive with the HT . We spoke to a fantastic councillor at the Maggie Centre who referred us to the ED Clinic . I must say between them both it has helped .
hugs , talking , sharing precious time together is my philosophy.
best wishes
Liz & OH XX
I love your answer to this, Relationships are very much involving two people and you can get lost sometimes . But it can be so easy to bring it back. If we are generalising about women and needs, it’s usually quite simple. - you want a man that shows that he loves you, adores you infact. Just small things will do it. Being helpful and caring. Odd bunch of flowers, saying you look great in a new outfit, even if you are fibbing. Touch - a cuddle, being desired.( I know this is a tricky thing with HT) but making the effort. There’s nothing that can switch you off more than a man that’s doesn’t notice you, that doesn’t hear you . That has expectations of what you should be or do for him without making any effort himself. Women tend to be naturally caring and loving- you just need to make an effort and find the way to switch her back on. Clearly you have found the answer. Always thought you had a well developed emotional awareness.
L
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