Ramblings of a nervous man................

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! a.m. and I'm nervous and just a little stressed......

In 5 weeks I've gone from a 'run of the mill' visit to my GP, which included taking blood samples to getting my biopsy results later today.

My GP called me to 'pop in' in a few days after my appointment to have a chat and told me my results included a PSA which showed as 14.9 ( I'm 70 years old ). It had gone up from 1.5 in January.

Long and short..... I had an appointment at the local treatment centre on the 22nd September for what I thought was an assessment, and chat, but actually had a perineal biopsy which surprised me a little. I then got an e-mail and confirmation letter on Monday, 26th with an appointment for today - 29th. to discuss the results.

I'm putting on a smiley face for my better half etc etc but being a natural pessimist I'm now stressing wondering why it's happened so quickly.

Double edged sword situation. Part of me is thinking I'm fortunate to have had such quick appointments and there's nothing to worry about, the other part is thinking " Why did they do the biopsy so quickly and why are they getting me back for the results within a week?".

I guess I'll have some or all of the answers by lunchtime today........... it just seems like a lifetime away.

That's it really, thanks for reading. I just needed to express my feelings/worries/concerns and I don't want my wife to think I'm anything other than super confident about things.

  • Hi

    Good luck and let us know how your appointment goes. 

    Stuart

    Trying to get fit again!
  • They will always do cancer tests as quickly as they can in case the cancer needs immediate treatment. Once they've got the details they will discuss , with you, the options available such as surgery, radio therapy, or just keeping an eye on it. Good luck and hope it's an easy solution.

  • Please keep us posted with any developments.  At first, last year I was ashamed for anyone to see me cry.  Now, I don't care who sees or what they think.

    Best of luck with your results.

    Do you have a Maggie's Centre near you?  They are brilliant and they have a benefits advisor to help you with applying for help.

    Steve (SteveCam)

  • Hi, nervous only you are one cool headed person, I was scared, spouse and I cryed like babies after diagnosis, but your on the right site, no matter what you come up against, one of the group will have gone through it.

    All the best Ulls 

  • Thank you for all the kind and supportive comments, I greatly appreciate them.

    Well, the news was about as good as it could be.... 

    Bad news - I do have prostate cancer

    Good news- It was Gleason 3+3. Only one out of eighteen samples showed cancer. After discussion with a truly wonderful specialist nurse I've opted for active surveillance so we'll meet every three months and monitor the situation.

    Fingers crossed it stays as it is. It's still an unnerving feeling knowing you have a cancer inside your body and I'm guessing it'll take me a little while to come to terms with it.

    Thank you again for the comments, it was good knowing there's such support from people I don't know. So greatly appreciated.

  • Good news, if you can call it that.  I was on Active surveillance for 4 years, then last year my PSA levels rose to 12.9, they got me in straight away (Gleason 3+4(7) 9/29 cancerous biopsies).

    I can't thank the NHS enough.  Now I am in Remission.  I opted for the Hormones and 20 fractions of Radiotherapy.  It did it's job.

    It took me a couple of months to accept that I had Cancer, lots of crying.  In the end it was all worth it.  I have come out the other side with a different outlook on life, try not to take things for granted.

    Trying to keep a sense of humour will keep you going.  Most important, tell your wife everything, don't be afraid to show your emotions.

    Have a look at some of the profiles, they tell you some really interesting information.

    Best of luck.

    Steve (SteveCam)

  • Hi S N, ok you don't know us yet, stick around and you will, especially if you have a good sense of humour, I been on here about 17 month's and have made friends with quite a few members.

  • Hi SN

    That's quite good news really, I was on AS for 4 years, it went ok, u do get used to the fact u have a potentially mild cancer inside u , try and look upon it as a friend rather than an enemy, keep on top of things by way of PSA tests every 3-6 months and Mri every year, watch out for any large PSA increases and could be worth keeping an eye on tumour size via the Mri .

    good luck and keep in touch

    Steve

  • Definitely went through it Ulls, finding out that your mortality is limited is a big thing and takes some getting used to apart from everything else. I have that old fashioned attitude that says crying is not allowed by me (but OK for others) so it makes it feel lonely. At times I can start crying when something triggers me off and I think of my children, how much I love them and how I want to be around them forever. (24 and 21 years old). So, positive thoughts to you and all of us on the site.

    All the very best,

    Denis

    Denis

  • Hi Denis, I fully agree with your post, there no need to feel lonely, I'm in same situation so can chat anytime, private message if you want.

    All the best Ulls