Why am I so angry

Hello TimR123 

Thank you for your post - Thankfully it's something I haven't experienced BUT it's a topic I have talked about. Don't forget I am not medically trained but your feelings of anger may well be caused or related to "survivor's guilt".

You have battled with Prostate Cancer for 10 years and during that time you have managed to control the cancer and continued to live a good life and just when you thought you had everything under control - boom - it's gone "walkabout" and ended up in your liver too.

Here's a link you may find of help:

Guilt and Advice.

I may be wrong and no doubt others will be along with a different answer. 

I hope this helps and if I can do anything else for you please do get back to me.

Best wishes - Brian.

I can relate to this problem of anger because of treatment working (or not working) and also struggle to deal with the confusion of the situation.

I know I’m not supposed to like being ill nor should I feel angry about it, but I do.

My anger comes and goes but I know I shouldn’t be feeling like it.

This got me thinking as to whether the advancements in treatments over time may also engender some negative thoughts along the lines of ''why wasn't this available when I needed it''?

Looking back is something we all do & entirely understandable, but to my mind we can't change what has already happened so focussing on what we have had & what we can & will do in the future is the way to go.  It doesn't stop those moments when we feel sorry for ourselves & may even try to lay some blame on others, but being self aware of those moments will hopefully galvanise more positive thoughts & feelings.

I think that being angry is perfectly normal. 

We all hate and get angry at change. It is part of the natural reaction. In many ways it worse be cause you don't have anyone to be angry AT. 

It may be that over time, you will be less angry, or angry less often. 

However, you should feel angry. 

Your life has changed. Some things have been taken away. You might feel weaker than before. You may feel more tired. Life, as I said, changed, and no one asked you. 

On the other hand, you might also find some good things. 

I appreciate my wife, children and grandchildren more. I enjoy the sunshine. 

The occasional beer really hits the mark. 

Life can be different, but still good. 

I pray that this us the same for everyone here, no matter how long our journeys are. 

I too experienced a lot of anger surrounding my cancer . 
I have come to understand that it is perfectly normal.

i am currently working with a therapist on cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) which helps you think about things differently helping with low mood , disinterest in things  and anger amongst other things 

it may be worth checking what’s available in you area as I found it through Talking Therapies on line