A Bit Overwhelmed

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Hi, 

I went for unrelated surgery about 11 days ago and before my surgeon got stuck in, he found a mass on my left ovary (about the size of a large grapefruit if his hands are accurate) After consultation with a colleague, he called in a gynaecologist who advised him to stop surgery. As a result bloods and a biopsy were taken while I was still under general anaesthetic (handy I thought!) This was all explained to me when I woke up, that I would also be having an MRI and that I would be contacted for that, which I was, and had the MRI 3 days later. The radiologist said the results should be known quickly from that as it was placed as an urgent request. So now I wait. It was explained that the results of the biopsy could take 2 weeks and then there would be a MDT meeting about my results. I’m a little on edge and still feeling overwhelmed as this has all been so unexpected. 

I’m just letting off steam at the moment. Hubby doesn’t know what to do with himself whilst my son is being quite stoical about it. I’ve heard nothing directly from Gynaecology as yet but I will chase them up next week I think. I just feel in limbo

  • I empathise with you as those first days of not knowing what is happening or what the future will be are scary, with each day feeling too long. Two years after being where you are I can only offer the suggestion to stay focused on your daily life, enjoy the activities and people that give you pleasure. That is the only thing that you can control and being in control of something helps. Also if you are going down the road of surgery and chemo, you won’t feel as well as you are feeling now so there may be activities that for a few months you cannot do. Enjoy them now. 

    Finally, hold on to the fact that this has been found by chance, possibly before the cancer (if it is cancerous) has spread to other areas of your body. The earlier tumours are caught the greater chance of containment and removal. My ovarian cancer was stage 3 so had spread to the surface of other organs and I needed radical surgery. Two years on I am still cancer free and living life normally. There is always hope. 

    I wish you well. X

  • Thank you for your reply Jackie. Part of me is feeling pretty miffed that this is happening on top of lots of other things but who said life is fair?? 

    I am beyond grateful and thankful that my surgeon took the actions he did because I know that whatever this is would have remained undetected for months/years otherwise. I’m 56 years old, on HRT and fat so fit the demographic for ovarian cancer. I’m trying to hope for the best while preparing myself as much as possible for something completely different. Both me and hubby are disabled with different conditions so that’s something I’m fretting over when considering possible outcomes if I’m honest. My mobility is shot to pieces plus I’m still recovering from the initial abandoned surgery so it’s all feeling a bit much right now!