RE: lonely isolated with suspected multiseptated ovarian cyst malignancy

Hi Butterfly UTR welcome to the forum..Gosh you have had a real awful time of things so it is of little surprise that you feel as you do. I don't know enough about your query however, I just wanted to say to breathe as getting analytical and seeking information, I'm.assuming from Dr Google will only make you stressed to the hilt and become unwell. I know it is not easy but try to wait until they get back to you. I'm.sure some of the lovely folks in this thread will be along soon to offer sone advice or information for you. 

Thank you Granny59. 

For lovely words of encouragement and advice. Come to think of it I am 59 in 4 months. Unless you were born in 1959. 

Indeed, Dr Google can twist ones head. However what it did for me eventualy is brought me to a point where am now with mind set...it will be what will be however I am putting in my mind and universe energy of "its harmless, it is coming out, I will be fine". This gives me stand point of ...if worse scenario comes I will be stronger to deal with that. Plus it means I learned most of what I needed to not be fully in the dark and left to be hit unawares. That's my coping mechanism working well for me in my life. I had a wobble now am stopped in one place ready for the next. 

I got 6.12. @10am (St.Nicholas day) app with ginekology department of local hospital so after it I'll be more in the know. Only 7 - 8 days wait. Will it be St Nicholas whip or sweets/presents, no one knows yet.

Warm huggzz sent to you Granny59.

Hi Butterfly,

I hope you are doing ok while you wait for your appointment with the gynaecology team. My suggestion is to keep doing the things in life that give you pleasure to keep your mind as much as possible off this (hard I know) and DONT go onto Google. Only go onto the Macmillan or NHS sites. There you will find sensible, balanced information. 

Please be aware that you may not have all answers at your gynae appointment. I had expected that and then was referred for a CT appointment following which there was a wait of a few more weeks until the hospital multidisciplinary team had discussed my case and agreed the treatment plan. It is useful to have a few nice things booked in your life to keep reminding yourself that cancer (potentially) isn’t the only thing in your life, it is made up of many facets of which cancer is just one part. 

Best wishes. 

Thank you JackieL. 

Indeed, I did put into my mind they may want CT and that one off app this coming week Fri will not be one and be all. I have condition called stress induced respiratory acidosis and am not to be under stress as my muscles may block including lungs muscle leading to coma and even death. I was advised as am 59, have pelvic presure non stop, pain in upper right quadrant where liver with increased ferritin is, and lower back and shoulder, indicating cyst pressing, I can ask to have it taken out be it it's not C or is C or is undecided. From Macmillan phone line I understand my MH and emotional wellbeing has to be considered. I live alone, very secluded, lonely, isolated, and w no help. Hence dragging all out, only to in months say still undecided or unclear or still needs monitoring carries that risk of stress and death by different condition. All I can do from my end is be calm and present so can "discuss" and navigate through the path ahead of me the best I can and keep repeating like broken record risks to my life if stress gets too much. At present am all the time horizontal Cs pain and swelling under ribs and constant bloatedness won't let me sit. I lost appetite. All in all entertaining myself with online things, and planned in xmas lights to go up upon my home roof edges. And xmas decor to get put up all in next two days. Life goes on and I am not intending to waste it. My xmas will be quiet but if nothing else cozy. That's what I owe to myself. I see from posts on here it is never simple straightforward. I have plan to see my widowed father far away for his 90th in 2 months time. No panic at my end. No over worrying. And it happens I took annual leave 3 weeks up to xmas, then it's 2 weeks no work Cs of hols, so am not going to be overwhelmed with work till 7.1. Gives me some time to myself to take it easy.