Hi. I've just found this group and am glad to have done so. In short, my journey so far has been a bit like having boarded an express train, for which I hadn't bought a ticket and which doesn't stop at any stations to let me get off!! Firstly let me say the NHS has really come into it's own for me. The specialist nursing team, the radiographers, the gynae oncologist, all been absolutely brilliant.
I had gone to the GP re something entirely unconnected to this. During investigations for my initial issue, the mass on my left ovary was discovered. From there it seemed every other week I was at the hospital for one test or another until in just a short time, my results were in and a bilateral salpingo oophorectomy was scheduled for a fortnight later. All went well with that surgery. Unfortunately, histology then indicated I needed further surgery. So, six weeks to the day from op one, I'm going back on the table on Monday to have womb, cervix, omentum, some lymph nodes and, for good measure, appendix for obvious reasons removed. Thinking you might have cancer was a challenge. Discovering that you do, quite another. Ive got a CT on Sunday ahead of the surgery and then I'm back to a waiting game. Fingers crossed for a successful surgery. I don't mind admitting that I'm terrified!
There's been a few challenging family situations this past four or five months going on too. I'm trying to balance all that with my health and recovery. I've sent out many positive intentions and am catching every good vibe I can.
Thanks for reading. Looking forward to sharing and caring with those sisters facing this issue too. Lots of good vibes to all on this journey. We've got this ladies.
Hello Helena27, wow what a train ride you're on. You sound so strong, as destabilising as this time in your life is. I want to acknowledge your fear, how understandable it is. I have been around the Macmillan online community for a few months now and everytime I log on I'm humbled by the strength and resiliance of so many who are going through so much. I have tears in my eyes as I write this.
I'm sorry you have to go through another significant surgery. It sounds like the NHS is really coming through for you and there is a whole medical team seeing that you get the care and treatment you need. I'm sending you so many good vibes and hugs and wish you all the best for the remaining part of your train journey, I do so hope you'll be able to get off soon.
Marie x
Hello Helena
I can identify with so much of what you say, & honestly you are taking it in your stride & being strong, because we all have to right? Firstly, aren't the NHS just amazing?! The team around me I cannot fault. It makes it all that much easier, although I had to chase a bit at times.
Secondly, I thought I had stage 4 cancer, but getting a diagnosis broke me...on the day. Nothing prepares you for it does it.
Thirdly, I have found difficult family relationships have improved since my journey started back in October, but in some ways it's overwhelming. Dealing with family issues is exhausting, let alone at a time when we are dealing with a cancer diagnosis. I too am so proud and emotional at the amazing resilience you & others are showing in the face of adversity.
2 operations in a row is alot to deal with, do you mind me asking what stage it us at? I have a rare clear cell ovarian carcinoma, quite resistant to chemo. But I have to shrink my tumour before operating, then have further chemo and radiotherapy. I have no idea what my prognosis is, although the stats. suggest poor survival rates. But I only take each day as it comes & live my life the best I can. I don't think ahead too much.
I pray your next op is successful. Always happy to chat if you'd like to.
Thanks Marie. I'm actually having second thoughts. I really don't think I am that strong. My family situation is such that the challenges of being incapacitated for several weeks is starting to feel like I simply can't do it. I've too much to see to at home to take time out to care for myself.
Thanks for your empathy and supportive words. I wish you all the very best, whatever your own journey is x
Thanks Kaz. You sound amazingly resilient. As I just said to Marie, I'm having second thoughts about going through with it. My family issues mean that me feeling out of action and vulnerable for weeks, potentially months, I don't think I can deal with it. I'm just about at the point where I can take care of me and the house etc and to consider giving that all up again, putting my trust in others entirely to step in? Not sure I'm strong enough to do it. I can kick the arse of cancer but to do it means risking a lot. That's what I'm not sure I'm strong enough to do.
You are doing amazing. Well done
Keep it up. Best to you x
I wonder is it worthwhile for you to speak to the MacMillan nurses available here? Or the live chat support when it’s available. If you’re not able to get the medical care and recovery time you need it’ll be difficult to continue to take care of your family in the long term.
This is tough and it’s important you have the support you need.
Hugs, Marie
Thanks Marie. Great suggestion. I think perhaps I'm just overwhelmed with it all and also so very scared about the surgery that it perhaps feels easier to consider running away any hiding. I guess, realistically, I can't do that and, I'd only be putting off the inevitable. I've had a night of sleep and waking and made myself face the fear, told myself to get a grip, get on with it, get it over and start to get better. You are right, I can't take care of anyone unless I take care of this and myself right now.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and respond. It feels good knowing there are others out there and we're not alone.
Thanks again xx
I think that's a great suggestion to speak to the Macmillan service. They also welcome friends and family to contact them. There's plenty of support for both you & them. My local Macmillan centre welcomes everyone too so noone is alone. Im sorry youre having such a tough time thinking about the best way forward. Your health & wellbeing comes first, so give yourself time and seek support. Your fears may be unfounded, its all so overwhelming isnt it. I feel for you.
Thanks for your kind kind comments to me..I just won't be beaten. I'm doing everything I can to look after my wellbeing, mentally and physically. Juicing up healthy shots and walking evrry day even for a short while. All these things help us to cope with all the challenges and emotional/mental situations that become part of our changed lives.
Always happy to chat. Stay in touch xx
Hi Helena27
The thought of surgery is very scary and I can completely understand that-I went through 2 surgeries in 9 weeks and it was a lot to cope with. My second surgery was massive-I had cervical cancer-and if you click on my name you could read my story and what I had removed in my op.
I was scared about it, but tried to focus on a potential end result of having my cancer removed rather than the process to get there. I did find a strength I didn’t know I had, and I know I wanted the surgery to give me the best possible chance of survival. Yes, recovery for me was long and difficult, but that was almost 4 years ago, and although my life is very different, I am here to enjoy it and have needed no further treatment.
It’s true that you need to focus on yourself-it’s like when you’re on a plane and they tell you to put your own mask on before helping others. You need to be well to manage everything else in your life and look after others, so your priority needs to be taking care of yourself and going through what needs to be done to get yourself well again.
I just wanted to reassure you. if I can, that it is possible to get through something like this and come out the other side. I know I have never once regretted it.
Sarah xx
Hi. Thank you for those kind and supportive words. I realised that I hadn't answered your earlier question about my stage. I've not got my final score yet. Initial findings is the cancer was in my left ovary. That was graded at C so until I have the rest of the surgery on Monday and get the histology back, the grading will be done as to whether anything is found in any of the parts of me they remove. Apparently the scoring system with ovaries is a little different to some others and we won't know until we know.
You are so brave and being, how I usually am, kick ass. I admire you and hope I get there soon too. This has been such a rollercoaster and so unexpected that I think it blind sided me. Anyway, I am focusing on having as good a weekend as I can, getting into and out of that theatre on Monday and getting home as soon after that as I can. That's when my kick ass will kick in again.
Stay strong, keep on keeping on. Well done you and thank you. Xx
Hi Sarah.
Thank you for your reply. I will read your story after the weekend. Thank you for sharing it with me. It's very reassuring that others have had two surgeries in quick succession. I'm very scared of this one because I know it's a bigger surgery than the last one, I'm not good at being incapacitated and I really struggled with the lack of my ability to just do stuff after the last one. Gawd knows what I'll be like this time. Frustration levels through the roof I think!!
You are so right that I need to put my oxygen mask on before I can help others. Thank you for the apology.
Well done you and thank you so much for the inspiration. Xx
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