Hi!

Hi, you will have days/ nights like this. I’ve been on this journey 21/2 years. 
cry when you need , scream ,rant just get it all out , it doesn’t help to keep it all bottled up. Try to live in the moment.

yesterday has gone, tomorrow is not guaranteed to any one , just concentrate on the present day. X

Hello…sending you love and hugs..,sounds like a cliché but I mean it.  There are times when you can let go all the anger, grief, the fear, and times when you are drowning in it.  Sometimes there isn’t someone to tell who is physically there for you.  Sometimes there is, but they can’t deal with it. I was only diagnosed in July 2021, but the huge size of my tumour suggested I had been ill for a long time without knowing it.  I was quite happy, not knowing!  But now I do know, I am glad, despite the sense of horror I feel.  I don’t like to be unaware, or burying my head in the sand.  I am about to start chemotherapy, and I really resent that I must have something so toxic…I’m grateful for treatment, but I dread it,  

Lack of sleep, insomnia, this is very difficult to deal with, on top of everything else.  Maybe speak to your doctor?  Could steroids be keeping you awake?  Or maybe you need more emotional support than you’re getting?  I have found magnesium citrate supplements very helpful, they have really helped my insomnia and anxiety.  

As someone else said on this forum, we are all in a club we did not want to join…I won’t say “cheer up”…you will when you are able, and when you can sleep.  
Love and blessings to you,  SueB.