Feeling really low

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I’m not sure why today particularly but I am suddenly feeling really low.

I finished third line chemo in November which was very rough and played havoc with my bloods. At the end of it all some areas that had increased in size during the chemo reduced and others stayed the same so I was kind of in the same place as when I started. It took quite a while to recover from the chemo but I was lucky enough to be able to go in a wonderful holiday with my son just before Christmas.

I’ve since experienced A week of excruciating pain and my next oncology review has been brought forward.

im coming up to 5 years since diagnosis this year and I know what the stats say. It took 2 years to get diagnosed and i still feel angry about this every now and again. I don’t want any more treatment but I also don’t want to die. Covid has taken away so many opportunities to enjoy the time I do have.

Most of the time I feel emotionally ok but today not

B.positive over 2 years ago

Hi Fizz181, I’m so sorry you’re feeling low today and just wanted you to know that others on this rollercoaster OC journey understand the feelings of highs and lows and are here for you .

Although in our heart of hearts we know this disease doesn’t discriminate, it’s only natural from time to time to ask “why me?”, or revisit the “what ifs” of our diagnosis and treatment plans and the sad reality of the stats. But we somehow find a way to pick ourselves up and look forward to a better day tomorrow.

I’ve recently begun my third chemo regime since diagnosis in November 2020, and although it’s more punishing than previous chemos, and is offering me only the possibility of holding rather than curing my cancer, I try to be grateful for each additional day that I’m able to spend with those I love and fill with things I enjoy.

I really hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. Big hugs coming your way,

love Barbara x

Foxygirl over 2 years ago

Morning I'm very positive about my future having had my chemo suspended as its reduced by half and I'm going to surgery. That doesn't mean that some days I I'm low and focus on the holidays i have cancelled nights out I haven't been able to attend spend time in tears. This disease is debilitating it's horrid and vile but give yourself a break have a down day.

I don't worry if I'm having a down day I give myself a good talking to eat nice treats even though it doesn't taste right, give my little dog a big hug take him out for a walk.

We can beat this sending huge virtual hugs.

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