Considering Refusing Chemo

I don’t have any answers for you but would say have you tried speaking to someone maybe start with your CNS at the department that are responsible for your care and treatment also could you try speaking to a professional psychologist or a friend you trust. My heart goes out to you as I have similar thoughts and find it sometimes helps to share not always but worth a try . Thinking of you and sending you my best wishes  x

Macmillan offers 4 free counselling sessions which you could use to explore this? I’ve had other times in my life where it has been put on hold but in the scheme of how many years I have lived and will live, it is a small percentage although it feels like ages.

Did you get any help last year when you felt suicidal? Is there someone from that time you can talk to?

You will still be in the healing stage from the operation so will be a bit more limited at the moment.

I did find at the start of this, I almost closed my life down believing I couldn’t do anything but there are still lots of things we can do. My main thing now is avoiding crowds of people and resting around doing things. I accept I can only walk for 30 minutes rather than walking up mountains as I used to, because at least I am still getting out. We went for a meal at 4pm because the restaurant was very quiet - a strange time but at least I did something I enjoyed.

Sending you a hug