Feeling scared

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Hi,

I've been having abnormal vaginal bleeding since June last year, GP sent me for a scan and bloods in August last year which showed a 5.7cm cyst on my Right ovary, 3.7cm on my left, and thickened endometrial lining. Referred me to Gynae urgently but because I live in Portugal that was 4 months till I was seen. Bleeding now pretty much back to normal flow tho still irregular (was regular before June last year), but at my Gynae appointment on Tuesday the consultant said there was no evidence of thickened endometrial lining, but "both my ovaries were enlarged". She didn't say cyst or what she thought it was, just that she wanted me to get bloods done, start the pill and go back in a month for another ultrasound. Felt ok about that until I looked up what the bloods were for, and all 6 blood tests are checking for ovarian cancer. Really scared now that that's what she thinks I've got as it's been 8 months since symptoms started and worried if it is ovarian it will have spread all over by now. I think what makes it worse is that my mum was only 4 years older than I am now when she was diagnosed with breast cancer and she died 8 years later from the disease. Has anyone else had something similar and all come back ok? 

Thanks for reading this

  • Hi  

    I don't have the experience you're looking for but I noticed that your post hadn't had any replies yet. Responding to you will 'bump' your post back to the top of the discussion list where it'll be more easily spotted.

    It's natural to feel scared, and fear the worse case scenario, when waiting for tests and then the results. Do you have any hobbies or interests? I found that by immersing myself in things which I enjoyed doing it took my mind off the 'what ifs'. Lots of people find mindfulness really helpful and, if this is something that you'd like to take a look at, clicking here will give you more information.

    Wishing you all the best x

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  • Hi Latchbrook, 

    Thanks for your reply. I'm currently working as a live in carer which keeps me busy and my mind occupied during the day,  but will definitely have a look into mindfulness as it's at night when my mind starts to wander to the worst case scenario. X