Hi my myeloma is back for the 3rd time. I can't face anymore chemo. I just want to die now rather than suffer.
Yummy mummy I am so sorry that you are faced the knowledge that your myeloma has returned again . Have you told your CNS how low you are feeling. Is it possible to meet up with your consultant to discuss not restarting chemo and what are the options for palliative care . Please don’t make any hasty decisions in the midst of feeling so lost and depressed there are people who you can talk to . I don’t have myeloma and can’t imagine your turmoil but my husband does and we discussed early on that I would support his wishes if he ever felt like you that he couldn’t face another round of treatment and to start palliative care . I suspect he is a lot older than you but please talk to the specialists treatment is moving on quickly and a newer drug may not cause such horrible side effects and you will still have the option to say Stop at any point . Please seek help .
Oh sweetie, I'm so very sorry. My heart goes out to you. The two replies you have received so far really make sense and show great understanding. I can't think of anything to add to what these lovel caring people have already written ... but I hope you will read what they have to say and stay strong.
All I can do is send my love, huge hugs and healing prayers ️ and hope that you have loved ones and close friends nearby .
Thinking of you, I promise. God bless xxx ️
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Hi Yummy Mummy I am so sorry to hear your myeloma has returned again just want you to know thinking of you & can only reiterate what everyone else has said & please don’t make any hasty decisions talk it through with your team & family.
sending lots positive thoughts to you God Bless.
Jacquie
Hi, really sorry to hear this and sending lots of love.please don't make any hasty decisions.Do you go to any well being groups? I find it really helps to talk to people going through the same things.
I too am about to face my second battle with this sneaky condition of ours and like you I dread the thought of chemo again but we must fight on as new treatments are always being worked on so who knows what may happen!
Stay strong John. X
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