Trigger warning, this message relates to the death of Woodland Fells.
Woodland Fells was my wife and asked that I post here in the event of her death. She felt that it was important that people knew how her story ended rather her just disappearing. I hope this post does not upset anyone or break any rules.
She died earlier this month aged 46. She had been doing well and was excited about a enjoying a period of relative good health before undertaking the CAR-T therapy which we hoped would significantly extend her life.
Unfortunately she had a very rare and extremely aggressive form of MCL, which suddenly flared up, putting her in hospital. The doctors tried every drug that they could to bring the disease under control. Unfortunately it did not respond to any of them, and she rapidly became sicker and sicker. She ultimate agreed to withdraw treatment as she was dying and there was no hope of recovery. She heavily sedated and died around 24 hours later with me at her side.
She was an amazing and strong person who is desperately missed by her children, myself, and her wider friends and family. Her philosophy was to never regret and we enjoyed a wonderful summer filled with simple but happy memories.
Please feel free to post replies but be aware that I am not sure if I have the emotional strength to regularly access her account and so may not see them.
Hi, I am so so sorry to hear this new. My sincere condolences to you and all your family.
There are no certainties when living with a rare types of NHL, my heart goes out to you.
Continue to strive to remember and celebrate her life in the weeks, months and years to come.
A few man ((hugs)) coming your way
Thank you, your kind words mean a lot to me. I cannot express how much I miss her, but her dying (and only) wish was that I look after our two children to the best of my ability.
Thank you for your kind words. I truly believe she was at peace in the last few moments of her life.
I know it's no real help. But we all know your situation will come to us one day. So at least you can be sure that our thoughts are truly with you and your family. I just wish I had something useful to say...but we are at least here, and we do understand m
Nobody can really help as you say but actually kind and thoughtful words like yours ARE enough. Nobody deserved what happened to us, or what you are facing, but it is nobody's fault. WoodlandFells (it feels so odd to call her that!) was philosophical to the end, even when told they were withdrawing treatment - she told me that she regretted nothing save not having the chance to see the children become adults. I admired her all the time we were together and hope I can be as brave in my and death as she was.
My father used to say "chin up" whether we'd barked a shin or when my mum died. I always hated him for it. But now all I can say is..,.well, you know,
So sorry for your loss, don't be alone you have friends among us who understand everything you are feeling, more man hugs
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