Havent been in here for a day or so I thought things were moving along and they arent. MRI machine down so they reschedule my appointment for next week what I thought was an appointment for the biopsy is just an assessment for that surgery..The waiting, wondering and worrying is hard. Every time they send my gp a letter they send me a copy and I dont understand any of it except I have lung cancer , the rest seems jibberish..talks about collapse, dont know the stage or type yet..its all just overwhelming sometimes..and today i feel super lonely.. i live with my 18 and 17 yr old but still so lonely as one is a gamer and other isnt nice if u sont so what she wants ..and theres no talking to her about it it just makes it worse.. sorry for the rant i just feel like a deer caught in the headlights of a car.. i know we're all going through the same in away and it's nice knowing yall may understand. Hugs to everyone who needs one..
Brandie
Hi Frazzled hugs right back at you and hope this all works out for you. xx
gail
Hi Frazzled the waiting is so blooming hard isn't it! The frustration is added too when machines don't work and appointments are pushed back! I am so sorry you are having to wait longer than initially thought.
I am saddened to hear you are lonely. Cancer is a very lonely place to be. Sometimes even when we are surrounded by people we can still feel alone. I wonder if your teenagers are doing what teenagers do, in a way to cope. All teenagers game I know, but that is probably a good escape for them. The other one is probably struggling with their emotions and doesn't know how to deal with what is going on.
It is a horrid situation, and I really feel for you. Sending hugs x x
