Ive lost them , again ! Honestly today I’m lower than a low thing at low tide …. Opened my eyes and couldn’t find any positivity anywhere this morning …. Hubby keeps asking if I’m ok and the standard reply has to be “ yes , I’m ok “ because it’s just easier that way isn’t it ? Rather than see the worry in his face if I say no ….. I’ve a really sore throat and productive cough since I met with the EBUS man Thursday , maybe it’s that ? 111 sent me to a and e for blood test to rule out any infection last night , yep sat night a and e ! Anyhow , that was fine just felt like it was me being a mardy bum in the end ! I did meet a nurse that could take blood without once looking at me though. That was nice !
Maybe it’s just one of those days where the what ifs live in the shadows and torment the blumming life out of you? …. Whatever it is , it’s demotivated me today ….. so what to do ? Go with it ? let the emotions come and then move on back to the now? ….. go find the pants ? What does everyone else do when they have a low day ? Any suggestions welcome ! So far … I’ve tried a little meditation but wanted to tell them to beggar off with the “relax your breathing “whilst mine sounds like an old steam engine this morning …. Might try a walk soon albeit I’m not feeling that either today with my breathing .all I want to do is curl up with the duvet and that’s not the right thing to do either I suspect …. I could do with a bum kick to get me out of this poor me mood I think ! Anyone got one of those? Anyway sorry to download all that and on a Sunday too ! Hope you are all coping with your “stuff” … Im off to trip over my big wobbly lip … much love , Elly
Hi Elly, sorry you are feeling so rubbish today. A walk may make you feel a little better. But do you know what? On days like these, with all that you are going through, it is ok to tell yourself it is OK to feel like this ! You are not Wonder Woman. You are going through something that you have never had to face before, and let’s be honest, it’s the scariest thing anyone ever has to do.
Have a walk, have a nice bath, and what I sometimes do is shut myself away in my room, away from everyone because I know that my thoughts and feelings will only upset everybody. Go with your feelings today, have a bloody good cry, and I’m sure tomorrow you will feel better xx
Thanks Chelle , I think that’s a really good idea , a few hours just being in my own head and space might help , I’m tired of holding it in for fear of upsetting others so I might just do that , have a me afternoon with the duvet and a bath later…. Strictly catch up with a magnum too I think, just to help my sore throat of course …
Hi elly
I completely agree with chelieimo ,have a me afternoon and tomorrow or later you will start to feel better ...prehaps I shouldn't say because you feel so rubbish but you have cheered me up reading your post ..you actually made me laugh out loud you have a great way of writing x..sending you a hug xx
Hi Elly
so sorry to hear your having a down day, you get full marks from me for admitting that, it is ok to have a down day. My suggestion go and have a nice bubbly bath whilst listening to you favourite music or watching your favourite tv program, after you’ve had a walk to blow out your thoughts. You don’t need big girl pants for a down day, I’m saving them for you for a day they are really needed,
for this evening go spoil yourself big hugs
Donna
Thanks Donna thats exactly what I’ve done , tried to listen to weird whale music but that wasn’t happening so switched to Simply Red … better ….. didn’t get a walk but did get 30 mins emptying sumner flower baskets into the green bin made me sad , but realised I was living my new high life . I’m planning a strictly catch up with a salted caramel ice cream tub …. Still feel low with a mixture of anxious tummy but I’m going to accept that right now and hope tomorrow brings a slightly better outlook and my pants back …. Hope you’ve had a good day ? Elly x
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