Melt down / panic

Do some deep breathing. Honestly it really helps. There’s nothing wrong with using whatever helps, including medication. Have some big hugs from ‘poor husband’ and bloody well cry if you want to. xxx

Dear EllyB,

I second what Orbit says. We all manage differently during the waiting periods. I spent a huge amount of time watching box sets, listening to sleep meditation on UTube, finding out about cancer on MacMillan and Roy Castle but only during the daytime. I needed to take fluoxetine post surgery as sleeping became just impossible as I was so wound up. I’ve also found tThe Samaritans very helpful to talk to when I didn’t want to talk to my husband or family. 
Wishing you all the best and sending hugs and love xxx

Thank you Orbit , I bloody cried a river !!  I just completely lost the plot , all the worry and tension since initial diagnosis came to a head , I took the meds and slept 10 hrs I’m in a much calmer place today so even if I only use them for the next few weeks to help me through I guess that’s what I’ll do …. Much love for your prognosis tomorrow I will be in your pocket wishing you well x

Thank you for your reply Daisychain … yes it’s a tough wait , I think this is the worst period and I’m hoping when the prognosis comes and I know what the treatment plan may be I will be better at accepting …. Being retired doesn’t help,  children grown and grandchildren not ready to accept anything just yet … keeping yourself busy and occupied is more difficult …. My husband is so supportive but …… you know it’s hard to tell them everything you feel for fear of their own upset …. I’ve just read your  own difficult path on your profile I’m sending YOU much love and support too x

Thank you so much. Coming here offers so much love and comfort and a place to share. It’s so good not to be alone on this journey. Love xxx

Well I’ve just bought a Ninja dual air fryer to cheer myself up. It cost a fortune so I’m going nowhere until I get my money's worth!!

yeah ! I want one , but looks complicated? And I can’t do complicated just now x

I’ve been thinking of getting one to cut down cooking expenses and have one item to do air frying, pressure cooking, slow cook. I currently have 3 different things that take up loads of space. Let us know how it goes xx

I’ll let you both know how it goes. It will keep me busy just figuring it out, but as I haven’t got it yet I’m  going to have a sleeping pill tonight I think xxx

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow love x