Still in shock even though the build up has been leading to lung cancer diagnosis. Going from an early cancer potentially curable to yesterday being told its treatable only not curable. Every time I visit the hospital the news gets worse. It does not help in keeping hope, and I am a really positive person. But I am grateful, there is immunotherapy treatment which sounds amazing, just preparing for months of ongoing tests and hoping for positive results but potentially not getting them. I know it's up to me to keep going and to choose life and to give those messages to my body, but today I just feel like staying in my lovely cosy safe bed.
