Hi all it’s only 12 day’s until my surgery and I have gone from feeling positive to feeling negative about have I made the right or wrong decision should i of gone down the radiotherapy path or chemo which was offered , I jumped straight into surgery I suppose it’s because the operation is getting closer. I’m moody and I don’t really want to socialise so I’m keeping it to a minimum I can feel myself being snappy to people trying to keep me positive it’s happening to me at the end of the day . I’m thinking about a trip abroad that I cannot go on all paid for and a weekend away with my son and his partner. Mid May I was told and we are now mid August 3 months . The surgeon wanted another CT thorax abdomen contrast which I had two weeks ago. Looking back through this it sounds like I’m feeling sorry for myself. I am already on antidepressants have been for a few years also sleeping is difficult.
Dito you are going through an awful time at the moment, so please be easy on yourself. The thought of surgery can be scary, but I believe you have made the right decision. Get the cancer out, gone, kicked to the kerb! I wish mine had been operable but unfortunately for me I have too many small tumours so it is not possible.
Do what you have to do until the surgery, if you don’t want to socialise then don’t. This is a whole new situation for you, not something you have had to face before, and hopefully will never again. Get the surgery done, then you can get back to living again.
I had similar, the London hospital is about 70 miles away from me but like Wythenshaw a specialist hospital.
I'm sure you're in great hands and they will take excellent care of you 
