morning everyone I’m just feeling so sad and down and depressed and I hate myself for feeling like this I feel so stressed and anxious, angry and I am fed up. I’m going to get treatment for my primary lung cancer and I keep telling myself I’m very lucky it’s only primary cancer it hasn’t spread and it’s very early stage so why am I like this? I’m fed up of my copd, depression, anxiety, and people not being able to understand how and why I feel like this? But I don’t understand my self so how can anyone else understand. I’m dreading my radiotherapy because it’s different from the one I had with my breast cancer, and I keep thinking where is the cancer going to come back next? And when? I had breast cancer in 2014 now I’ve got lung cancer will it come back? I think it will, I’m feeling so down and negative and I feel so guilty for being negative on this forum when everyone else is so more much worse off than me but I feel like screaming and then I don’t know how I feel I feel numb love Yvonne xx
Hi Yvonne17
i feel exactly the same as you. I think its part of my processing the diagnosis. I got mine yesterday so it’s now very much dependent on what the PET scan shows.
I had peeking duck last night and wine. That cheered me up and today I going to buy some wool to knit some little prem blankets they’re asking for them at a hospital not far from me.
Be kind to yourself
Sending you a hug
Ann
Yes.
Good point I’ve searched internet and come up with all sorts however my choice is the incubator babes. twelve by eighteen inches. Some of those little ones are only two pounds imagine a bag of sugar.
It’s important that the knitting is close stitches. Not too many holes for their tiny fingers to get stock in. So I’m using DK smaller needles and moss stitch. I’m going to single crochet some next project. I might make matching hats. It’s giving my hands something to do apart from comfort eat.
Im interval training too. Very baby seps only a few minutes today but I’ll build up. Think cardio will help me cheer up a bit. I am feeling very sorry for myself. Boo hoo
Ann
Oh and I’ve read no natural fibres as they may be allergic and non smoking home.
My sis has given me some wool but I want to add colour. I’ve read that it cheers the sterile environment x
Ann
Ha ha cardio is out for me too. I did 1 min run and 3min walk twice. Pathetic but a start. We have a treadmill and I remember doing interval training years ago. It should cheer my misery head up too. Walking out is tricky for my I’ve had a reversal of my Ileostomy so need toilet close. Oh the joys of life x
Ann
Yes I used meditation and it worked well 2021 with my bowel cancer. Not done it with this yet. It’s a different emotion second time around
Ann
