Hi All - it is with great sadness that I tell you that my partner of 37 years lost his short (backache for a couple of months - A & E 2 days before Christmas because of pain - diagnosed as lung cancer that had metastasised to brain & spine) fight with this awful disease.
He died at the end of February in hospital with myself & our 2 children with him, which I suppose is some comfort as at the moment hospital visiting is not allowed - plus it would have been terrifying to see him at all in case we were unwittingly carrying Coronavirus.
The funeral was on 12 March, & as there were quite a lot of people there I decided it would be best if I kept to myself afterwards as much as possible just in case I had picked up the virus (had it not been for the funeral, I would have semi- isolated myself the week before).
So at the time I most need a hug, I'm in the house alone. Thank goodness the weather is good so I can get in the garden & cut the grass etc.
Every time I think I'm OK something reminds me of him & I'm crying again. Just keep pretending everything is OK when the kids ring to check up on me. Hopefully the pain will lessen in time.
Hi bclab
I am so sorry for your loss, and this is such a difficult time to be alone. Being isolated makes you feel very vulnerable. Please use the group that Gina has suggested, but feel free to join in on our lung chat group at anytime. Take care.
