Good afternoon all! I hope everyone is well.
So on April 4th id rushed into hospital wish a suspected PE and/or pneumia due to the severity of the pain I'm having just under my ribs into my back and reduced breath sounds in my left lung, breathlessness, sweating spells. 17 hours later I'm told it's not a PE but the CT has just picked up a mass on my left kidney that is pushing my organs resulting in my left lung not being able to inflate.
40 hours later I'm in for another contrast CT of my left kidney and surrounding area then reporting straight back to the SDEC consultant.'
Probable new cancer diagnosis' is on the report and my world went crash. 90% likely due to the area and presentation - I don't know what that means but the doctor is telling me the words... Referred to MDT, urology will lead, appointment in a couple of weeks, get a notebook cos I'll have so many questions etc etc. No sign of spread so they'll just focus on removing it but they need the MDT and then they'll see you too agree a treatment plan
68 hours from a PE to that 6 letter word.
Monday is meeting my consultant. I want to argue to just get it out, get it gone, it's causing breathlessness, pain, sweats, friends and family are commenting how unwell I look, but I'm scared.
The closer that appointment gets the more torn I feel yet I know I'll have to be my biggest advocate and I don't know how when I just don't want to be in this position.
No-one seems to understand why I'm torn, or my obsession over the right notebook - it needs to be the right notebook
