Finding things hard to process

I’m so sorry for your loss and completely understand how hard it must be to comprehend the speed at which this cruel disease can take someone we love. My lovely hubby was just diagnosed with kidney cancer in April and we have been told as it is a particularly aggressive cancer there is only palliative treatment available I have watched him fade away in front of me and it is heartbreaking I am struggling with anxiety and fear of having to contemplate my life without him. Sending hugs to you x 

Im just happy she is now at peace & out of pain & the last word i said to her is that i loved her & she said she loved me too.

I am so sorry to read this. No words from me can ease your grief. Grief is a very personal issue. In my experience it doesn't leave us, we just adjust and learn to cope with it. Sadly it is part of life. My very best wishes to you.

But she is at peace now, with no pain 

I'm so sorry to hear about your mum.  It must have been really upsetting for you, especially the timescales.  You might find this forum useful and supportive  Bereaved family and friends forum  

1. I'm sorry to hear about your mum, very sad. My husband was never diagnose and passed away suddenly and was only 53. Our son 22. Such a shock to find out that he had kidney cancer in both kidneys and was working the day before he died. This new journey is horrendous without my soul mate. One day at a time X

I really dont know if its hit me yet, went to see her today at the funeral director today & it seem easy as she not in any pain anymore, & you can still see the swelling in her kidneys.