Finding things hard to process

I’m so sorry for your loss and completely understand how hard it must be to comprehend the speed at which this cruel disease can take someone we love. My lovely hubby was just diagnosed with kidney cancer in April and we have been told as it is a particularly aggressive cancer there is only palliative treatment available I have watched him fade away in front of me and it is heartbreaking I am struggling with anxiety and fear of having to contemplate my life without him. Sending hugs to you x 

Im just happy she is now at peace & out of pain & the last word i said to her is that i loved her & she said she loved me too.