Hi!
I'm new in the community, but you already helped me a lot, I've read tons of useful and reassuring info.
I've passed 8 rounds of ABVD chemo and now waiting for PET/CT scan to decide what further treatment is needed.
But after last three chemos I started suffering from sad and destructive feelings. It feels that I have already failed because I have lymphoma and that I'm unworthy compared to other people because I'm sick with such powerful disease whilst other people just live and enjoy everyday life. I wake up every day already feeling miserable.
Currently I'm attending psychologist and this helps, but each new chemo and hospital visit drops me down to this state.
Have anyone experienced such thing? Can this be just chemo affecting my nervous system?
Hi , I just seen that your post had no answers as yet so though I would drop in post from the Non Hodgkins Lymphoma Group.
ABVD is a strong treatment and yes, for some it will mess with your head but that fact that you are on the site means that you recognise the problem and want to deal with it.
Don’t focus on other people and compare yourself - you are working through a blood cancer and it is just hard work but this journey can be won as there is a way though this....... you may not see it at the moment but it can be done.
It’s good that you are talking face to face with someone as this will help a lot.
I would also recommend that you look to see if there are some cancer support groups in your area as attending a group like this will help you understand that it’s not just you - this happens to many folks.
So check to see if you have any Local Macmillan Support in your area or a Maggie’s Centre as these folks are amazing.
((hugs))
Dr Peter Harvey great paper
