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Well hello everyone, about time I updated what's happening with me; been a while since I posted regularly. I've always kept eyes on here, I get email notifications of all activity, but this corner of the Macmillan Community runs absolutely brlliantly, thanks to Dani and Hazel ably supported by Chris and many others. I'm in regular contact with Dani also...very proud to call her a friend.

Anyway, without going into detail (we'd be here all day!), I had my first cancer eleven years ago, treated with neck dissection and seven weeks CRT, all clear five years later.

Then in 2020 (peak Covid) I was diagnosed again, salvage laryngectomy this time, a month in hospital and voicebox removed, so I've been without a voice since then....but content with life (after processing being widowed at sixty...another story), I always find the positives in any situation.

And now? Well here we go again. Probably two years ago I started getting a bit of throat pain, it came and went but eventually it came and stayed. I've had so many people search for the cause with all sorts of scans and studies, general anasthetic searches, all to no avail....still the pain came until I was on morphine and fentanyl patches...then last month my "lead" surgeon had a look under general..

When I went to get the outcome of the procedure, he told me before I even had the chance to sit down, "It's cancer" he said, incurable and terminal this time. But then he offered the possibility of immunotherapy to keep the terminal bit at arm's length for a while; subject to blood markers, which my blood aced!

So I've been funded (it's expensive stuff!) for two years of Pembrolizumab, which I know has been discussed on here a few times recently, and I start on Wednesday. Still terminally ill, which is quite a heavy badge to wear on occasion, but still looking for the good, and believing this adventure (life) is far from over.

People want to know "how long do they reckon?" but I have no idea because I've not asked and never will....I'll keep going until I stop....simple.

Anyone with experience of Pembro-thingy thoughts woul be much appreciatedThumbsup

Hope everyone is coping with whatever challenges they may have xx

  • What a journey you've been on Mike, and I'm sorry it's come to this. You're clearly a trouper. Just sending love & luck

    Catriona

    September 2022 aged 63 diagnosed with HPV associated SCC base of tongue T4 N2 M0. Chemo & radiotherapy for 6 weeks ending Nov 2022. Oct 2024 nearly 2 years all clear. See my profile for longer story

  • Anyone with experience of Pembro-thingy thoughts woul be much appreciated

    Hi Mike. 
    I’ll tag  

    I’m sure he won’t mind giving you a hand with the Pembro. 
    You know me. I’ll give you all the virtual hugs in the world. 

    Dani 

    Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019

    I wrote a blog about my cancer. just click on the link below 

    https://todaymycoffeetasteslikechristmasincostarica.com 

    Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm

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  • Hi Mike. Bugger Dani’s tagged Anson  aka Crofterlad he’s completed 2 years of immunotherapy finished last November. I’m also speaking with him later so will get him to Pop on. 
    sending huge northern hugs to you. 

    hugs Hazel xx

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

    https://www.instagram.com/merckhealthcare/reel/DBs8Y0niJ8N/

  • Hi Mike,

    Gutted to hear that you're now on your third round of cancer. As    mentioned, I also had a terminal diagnosis over 3 years ago and was put onto Pembro. I had fewer side effects than if I was on chemo, although I was always kept aware that adverse effects were real and could hit any time. Thankfully I managed to complete 2 full years of the drug, and now I'm on no treatment at all, although am still scanned regulalry to check there is no new tumours. Main thing is, terminal doesn't have to mean immediate.... I blogged about all of this as well that I could send you the link to if you liked. But also, more than happy to chat to you anytime on any platform. Take care, Ans

  • That's a really encouraging read Ans, link to your blog would be much appreciated.

    Perhaps will stop my kids scouring my guitar collection armed with a calculatorJoy

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    Metastatic SCC diagnosed 8th October 2013. Modified radical neck dissection November, thirty-five radiotherapy fractions with 2xCisplatin chemo Jan/Feb 2014. Recurrence on larynx diagnosed July 2020 so salvage laryngectomy in September 2020.

    http://mike-o.blogspot.co.uk/

  • Hah! Yeah, I need to cancel my DNR order!!

    Although blog goes back farther in the time, the stuff with Pembro starts here really:  https://ansmackay.wixsite.com/uclgeography/post/stage-4 

  • Hi Mike I really don't know how to respond to this news. I can only hope that the treatment will give you lots of extra time.  I have admired the way you have dealt with what you have gone through these last few years. You are an inspiration. All the very best to you mate.

    Ray.

  • Hi Mike

    I was so sad to hear about your news and wish you lots of success with the immunotherapy. I hope it gives you many more years. You have always been so positive about things and an inspiration to so many including me. I came on this forum in 2019 after my second diagnosis of jaw cancer and you helped me more than you know. Here I am now after another diagnosis in 2022 and still going strong thanks to this forum and people like you who give us all hope.

    Sending you positive thoughts and big hugs

    Lyn

    x

    Sophie66

  • Early start today, have "new patient assessment" in oncology, which feels a bit strange, being a new patient after eleven yearsJoy

    Know what they mean though. It's in Cherrybrook, which is the chemo ward.....relatively new build and seriously luxuriousThumbsup

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    Metastatic SCC diagnosed 8th October 2013. Modified radical neck dissection November, thirty-five radiotherapy fractions with 2xCisplatin chemo Jan/Feb 2014. Recurrence on larynx diagnosed July 2020 so salvage laryngectomy in September 2020.

    http://mike-o.blogspot.co.uk/

  • Mike

    Sorry to hear your latest diagnosis, but you seem to be acing living the fullest possible life no matter what is thrown at you.  I love your attitude to the "how long?" question.

    Here's hoping the immunotherapy gives you what you want and your quality of life is good.  Let us all know how you are doing.

    Peter
    See my profile for more details of my convoluted journey