Morning all,
Today marks 19 weeks post treatment and looking back I can't believe how far I have come. The first 3 weeks were some if my darkest days. I struggled to accept that recovery is a marathon and not a sprint.
I have posted previously about how I am having counselling. 3 months ago I kept bursting in to tears and didn't know who I was anymore. From my assessment they said I had depression, anxiety, ocd, trauma & phobia - a mess! We did another assessment at the end of this week's session and I could see how much progress I have made. I am normally an on top of everything control freak, but was in complete despair. Reflecting on the progress I noted that I feel not just physically but emotionally much better than I have in years. Maybe some of the teenage lie-ins during the summer holidays have helped me recharge, undoubtedly the support from family, friends and all of you on here has helped, getting out and about again has helped too.
Thinking back at minmax's encounter with lovely Lynn, and various posts about fresh air and our dogs and making 'me time' all made me feel grateful, so I wanted to send you all a huge thankyou.
Pip woke at 5.20 today, so I decided to take her to the hill. There was a lovely sunrise as we walked there, sorry didn't get a picture of that. The stillness with the odd distant car, train and cows, peppered with birdsong was fantastic. Just me, my pooch and nature. I noticed how alive my senses were, smelling the bracken and forest floor, the feel of the breeze on my face, and picking up the different birdsong. I felt so alive. Am I 'better'? Hell no. But I feel as well as I can be at this stage and that is reason enough to celebrate. Never felt so lucky on Friday 13th, let's hope I haven't just blown it!!
Have a lovely day all, make some time for yourselves today no matter where you are on this journey.
Ronnie (& Pip)
Hi morning glad your feeling more positive, sounds silly but it makes as release the world is a beautiful place one gift cancer has give us. I am going for my 6 week check up today first one without hubby beside me should be routine fingers crossed. But it is Friday the 13th as you said will we ever just think its a breeze 
Lovely post to wake up to Ronnie, good on you..
Metastatic SCC diagnosed 8th October 2013. Modified radical neck dissection November, thirty-five radiotherapy fractions with 2xCisplatin chemo Jan/Feb 2014. Recurrence on larynx diagnosed July 2020 so salvage laryngectomy in September 2020.
She was full of it this morning! Can't help but soak up her energy 
Best decision getting a dog! Glad yours has helped you too.
Have a lovely day all, make some time for yourselves today no matter where you are on this journey.
Important to look after ourselves and remember we do have a future. So much if our present is predicated on it.
Having got treated and staggered through to the other side it’s easy for others to think we are ok
This says it all
www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/.../After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
