Feel like a failure

Hi you’re not a failure your fear is real. I know  someone who had hypnosis and others whi  have bern given mild relaxants. Are your  team offering anything ?Maybe you need to speak to someone as radiotherapy is usually less than 10 minutes from start to finish but you may need a course of tablets or some counselling ti help you through that stage if you need it. 
Hazel 

Hi Hazel it wasn't for radiotherapy it was a head and neck MRI , I have had mri before but couldn't cope with the cage . I have asked consultant for referal to an open MRI scanner even if I have to travel or pay. If they can't offer me that I'm not sure what I will do go with CT or nothing and just see what the biopsy throws up  

You're not a failure at all, it's a very difficult process to go through. Can I ask whether the "cage" had a 45° mirror in it, if it had your view would have been of the control room so should be no claustrophobic feeling at all (for me anyway, I've had scans with and without and without is much harder).

Maybe ask if they have access to one. The alternative is, as Hazel suggested, some sort of sedation.

I absolurely and totally get it. I have a mild sedative! I've got my first RT with the mask on the 14th I'm already in meltdown and having sleepless nights.

Hi, I couldn't cope with the scan nor the radiotherapy mask so they gave me Lorazepan which helped a bit. Also for the scan how about asking if they can play music of your choice which they offered me for RT. That got me through 

Kaye 

Hi 

Just seen your comment - I had 20 doses of RT and only one occasion did I get the mask on 1st time. Worse was 9 attempts. But apparently from the relaxant they gave me they also offered music. So I chose my music and they played it and I kept singing along in my mind and soon it was over. Hope it goes OK. K

I'm going to ask about music. I had lorazapan, it didn't do anything. I'll be asking for something stronger or I won't manage.  I'm terrified at the prospect.

I had 6 teeth out this week, extremly painful, RIG going in on on 12th, to be honest, I really don't feel right now I'll manage it. I'm so physically tired and in varying degrees of pain. My teeth and throat seem to be all rolled into one at the  moment, it's very uncomfortable.

Hi Mike 

No it did have a mirror but I could only see my eyes . 

It's horrible alfieangel . I'm sending you a big hug hope things get easier soon

Thanks everyone , I'm gonna have to get a sedative I think or get hubby to drop a big book on my head . I can't pretend it will be easy but there is no other choice x