I've spent the past ten months thinking
What if...
What if the cancer is too advanced
It wasn't
What if the treatment is hard
It was...
What if the treatment doesn't work
It did
What if the Cancer returns when treatment ends
IT DID NOT.
The oncologist is thrilled. With cancer of unknown Primary there will never be a cure. But I have absolutely no evidence of cancer on my scans. Three months post treatment they actually improved. So now it's time to drop the "I've got cancer" to "I had cancer" , time to drop I can't do because..now it's I'm going to do it because.
Life is for living and whatever living means to each person as an individual.
When we left we went for a beer and then lunch. Bought some plants
Tomorrow I awake an ex cancer patient, I never wanted cancer to define me, unfortunately it does slip into ones mentality.
My first aim is to lose the 20lbs that I gained... I'll be pushing myself with Team RH. I'll be walking my beloved dogs from Monday for an hour EVERY morning. I'm looking forward not back. If I ever bring up ..I had cancer.as a defence .. throw a brick at me,
Now, it's getting the family over to visit us ( we live in Spain, ... And a little weekend planned , just us in Portugal next month Thank you all for your support and PM's I know many are going through equally difficult times in all sorts of ways.
Just keep putting one foot in front of another... Eventually ...the goal will be reached
Hi we’ve been with you from the start an excellent piece that gives hope to others.
onwards n upwards from here
positive mental attitude xx
Hugs Hazelxx
Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz
My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now 6 years post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help
2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers
Lovely post Tanya. Cancer is never over for any of us. We are only one appointment or scan away from it but with the skill of our oncologists and surgeons we are in remission. There’s no point in getting a five or ten year “All Clear” if we have spent those years in permanent terror of recurrence. We’ve been given a second chance so best foot forward and live our lives the best way we can.
Well done.
. If I ever bring up ..I had cancer.as a defence .. throw a brick at me,
You know we will hold you to that
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
Good evening Tanya, a lovely post to be reading, it gives many positives to so many people because as soon as the word cancer is mentioned its all doom and gloom with all the ifs and buts which is quite natural. Im glad you have taken this positive attitude as i know how much it helps, it certainly helped me. I have now been cancer-free since 2010 and like you, i had some tough times but it was worth it in the end. I wish you and your family all the very best for the future, take care, be good .
Chris xx
What a great uplifting post and I am so pleased for you!!
I am almost 2 months post treatment and am getting better slowly but each week sees some improvement. My attention has definitely moved to the 4 month scan results now that I feeling more human. I think about it every day and just need to know if the treatment worked or not!! My primary was in my tonsil and removed, stage 1, small and caught in early stages. Spread to 2 lymph nodes but 80% chance of cure and HPV positive. I have every reason to be optimistic but I have this voice that keeps saying what if you are in the 20%.
To read stories like yours is most uplifting
Thanks
Michelle
Thanks for such a great post. I love your attitude!
Just started week 3 of treatment. Had a dreadful start of spending 3 days in hospital after my first chemo but my pain and nausea meds are currently doing the trick but I know the boats heading for choppy waters. There is an end to this and I am looking forward to saying " I had cancer".
Julie x
Hang on in there....you're approaching the worse bit...the last few weeks of treatment `and a few weeks after but there is light at the end of the tunnel I promise. From being convinced I was a dead woman on more than one occasion to two years plus down the line I'm practically as good as I ever was but wiser, more tolerant and missing a tooth and both tonsils.....but I wolfed down a pizza for dunner.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
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